LiTTLE CHERiNE Book 02 - post203
I know that many people would find this kind of teasing annoying - Jonathan springs to mind. I do not know why, but it comforts me and fills my heart, making me feel loved and accepted as I am, not as the other Cherinians see me. It gives me a feeling of family.
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I still find it sort of unnatural (I think my mother does too) to see my ‘mother’ so young and so happy with a husband so much older than her - the fact that he also represents the only person I sort of hate does not contribute to my understanding her. This copy of my father does not seem so cold and has shown a sense of humour I’ve never seen in my own father, but still, he looks and sounds like him.
They joke about my taking the virginity of little girls, but in truth, those still left are becoming more aggressive when in bed with me, trying to tempt me to make love to them. It is not that I am determined not to, I’ve given up on that front; it is my wish to make the occasion special for them that holds me back. I cannot very well, under present circumstance, take them away for a weekend of loving.
Luckily my little Candy has shown no interest. She comes to my arms to be held and loved in my gentle way, her tiny body kissed and caressed. She has not evidenced any need or even understanding that she could also want or expect anything more. I am glad. There is something special about this little girl and I treasure her just as she is. The only thing she wants of me fairly often is that I go play puppy or other games with her in her mind. She is also the only one who plays games with me in real life, bringing her dolls and making me take part in her games. At last I am getting to feel some of the sweetness of being a father.
She also seems to have become a favourite of the others, even the babies treating her as their little sister, and it needs no special gift to sense the pleasure they get out of looking after her. Her eyes are never hooded, deep in thoughts like Wendy’s sometimes are, I would even venture that the saying ‘bright as a button’ must have been coined for her and she delights us all with the odd little things she will think up. I shared with her, from when she first joined us, the same gift I did with Wendy and her own talents as a musician are growing. I have also shared with the other Wendy, hoping she too will fill her own world with beauty someday.
Why do I mention all this?
Because it is too easy to forget at times how special all my girls are and to begin to take them for granted. What brought all these thoughts to my mind was a conversation between Rob and Niko.
“How are you going to get your own Cherinians to grow as a group Rob? I know you have your Cherine and Wendy. I’m asking because I would like to know if you are going to get my sister and myself too. I’d like to think of them as being part of us.”
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“I do not think your sister would love me. Maybe she is already in love or married to someone else.”
“It might help if I am present when you meet them.”
“Thanks Niko. You know what worries me a little? That I will never have a Sam or Em-e or any of the other girls who do not already exist in my world. I see how special they are and know I will miss not having them as part of my family too.”
“You will have your own daughters and meet other little girls to love.”
“I can love adult girls too Niko.”
“So can our Robert. There is though a special sweetness in being loved by these miniature femme fatales.”
“I hear you no longer tease Robert about it.”
“How can I? I could not bear to be without my two girls, I never thought I could be so happy being enslaved by two little girls.”
I was listening to them as they talked, my door ajar and my preoccupation with their conversation not readily apparent to them. I sat back and thought about it for a while. Later on I called all my girls into our bedroom and gave them the gist of what I’d heard.
“Dommi, would you also try to help with the Dominique of that world?”
“I could, but I do not think she will love him. Our love grew out of the friendship we had.”
“I understand that. We should still try though.”
“I agree, maybe I can help.”
“You want to manipulate her Cherine?’
She grinned back at me. “Any Dommi would be easy to manipulate in that way.” That started a pillow fight which Dommi won.
“I have an idea, but it would have to be the decision of each of you, specifically those it concerns. For example Sam, how would you feel about creating another Sam? We would have to take part of your soul, same as I gave part of mine to the twins. Of course in your case you would not wipe out the personality. We want her to be the same as you. She could then become part of Rob’s family, his daughter and wife. If we did that with those of you he could never have on his world, I think we would make him a very happy man.”
“You want my honest opinion Robert?”
“Yours Cherine? Is it pertinent, since you would not be part of this?”
“I think so. Robert, I have shared, as you all know with little Cherine. I have also seen her Rob as he is, from in her. Robert, he is not like you. There is enough of you in him for little Cherine to love him, but there is a lot missing. That gift you have, the way you love, he has it, but he does not have much of that which we call your craziness. I think it is that which makes us love you so much. It is that which makes little Cherine still feel drawn to you. It is as if she feels something is missing.”
“Cherine, is it the craziness or the protector?”
“Maybe both. It is a nice feeling knowing my man is so powerful. I feel safe and protected and proud. But the craziness part is what makes me go gaga over you.”
“I always knew there is something weird about you. Sam, what do you say?”
“I’d do it for you Robert. I would like to feel there is another Samantha. I will also feel a little sorry for her. She will know you are her true father. She also will not have her Ordinx.”
“She will my love. He will be different though, especially after having been ‘saved’ by the Sparklers.”
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“Maybe he needs a different Sam then, one like she will be.”
“How about the rest of you?” It turned out that they all had their reservations, but none of them objected. Meli was the only one who saw it as a solution to her problem. Having to create worlds for all the races or species of our own dimension and then also the other reality was daunting.
“Do we tell them or do we just turn up with their new family?”
“We should not do it all at once Robert. It will be unfair to the babies and to them. One at a time. Give each baby the chance to bond with them first. We also have to be certain little Cherine wants this, so you will have to discuss it with her first.”
“Cherine, would you?”
“No, you must do it.”
“Shit! If I ask her and she wants to say ‘no’ she cannot. Rob will see her decision in her mind.”
Cherine was all sweetness so I knew she was about to do a bit of manipulating. “You should offer to let them have their own Meli. Explain how it would help ours, that we need it. That way you do not overwhelm them with a large family. If they want her and are willing to love her, we do it. Give them time to bond and then maybe Sam can offer. Diana, I think you should be last. Little Cherine will be afraid of you, that you might take her Rob away from her.”
Everyone liked her suggestion and Dommi approved it, so I had to go along. Her idea made a lot of sense, even if we were manipulating little Cherine. I wonder if I went along with it because it was Cherine manipulating ‘herself’?
They were both overjoyed at our offer and agreed.
“Cher, do you want to wait a while? Having Meli means you will no longer have Rob to yourself and you then also have a baby to bring up. Do not think that because she is a Cherinian and can become an adult when she wants to, that she is mature. You and Rob will have to see to it that she does grow as she should, as a little child.”
“I will Robert, I promise. I want her now.”
“We need to first concentrate on ‘feeding’ our Meli’s soul, it must be as large as possible before we split it. She will not be giving of the slivers she holds. Your Meli will have to decide later on which slivers she wants.”
“Robert, how can we thank you.” There were tears in his eyes and he was broadcasting his happiness so strongly I am certain that even our non-Cherinian neighbours must have felt it.
Meli herself was the one to point out the danger. “I must not see her. If we meet we will bond and then she cannot become theirs.”
“You are right. I think none of us should see her. We must give them time to bond first. She needs to acquire her own experiences so that her mind starts to take new channels that make her different from you. I think they need at least a couple of weeks, maybe even a month. They will have to concentrate on filling her mind and heart with their love and ideas - give her as many experiences as possible.”
“Robert, you still have the ‘painter’ in you. It must use the ‘eraser’ part of itself. The new Meli will be an exact copy of our Meli, with her memories and her love for us. The eraser must get rid of it before the soul goes into the new body and becomes aware of itself.”
“I think we better ask the Sparklers for their help and advice. If we take all her memories away, then she will no longer be our Meli at all. I’m not sure I want that.”
“Part of her memories of us is made up of her love of us. What of sex Robert. When she goes to her Rob do you want her comparing him with you?”
“I think I should never have dreamt up this scheme in the first place. I had not expected to feel as if I am losing part of my Melina and hurt so much.”
“It will hurt us all Robert, but if her going is a sacrifice on our part, she becomes an even greater gesture of love.”
“You are right Aganthi.”
Αλέξανδρος Ζήνον Ευσταθίου
(Alexander Zenon Eustace)26th March, 2019
* posted on Steemit: 26th March, 2019
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Να σου πω την αλήθεια και στο μεταφραστικό που το έβαλα μπερδεύομαι.... Μπερδεύομαι πότε μιλάει ο ένας Ρόμπερτ και πότε μιλάει ο άλλος Ρόμπερτ πότε μιλάει η Cherine και πότε μιλάει η άλλη Cherine...
Και σε σκέφτομαι εάν φτιάξουνε και ομοίως για τον εναλλακτικό κόσμο πως θα τους ξεχωρίζω?
Opos eipan, sto kosmo tou Robert, o allos legete Rob. Ean pane episkepsi sto diko tous kosmo, tote o dikos mas (o Prime [πρωταρχικός ] Robert) tha legete Rob.
Aisthanete o Robert oti kati prepei na kanoun gia na voiithisoun to Rob ki tin mikri tou Cherine na apoktisoun oikogeneia. O Nikos kai i Dommi prosferoun tin voiithia tous me tous alt Domminique kai alt Niko tou reality to Rob.
O Robert rotaei tin Samantha ean thelei na 'horisei' tin psyhi tis, na δημιουργίσουν apo kittaro tis kainourgio soma, gia na ehoun kai ekeini Samantha diki tous.
Apofasizoun oti kalitera i Meli na to kanei prota - i kainourgia Meli onomazete Honey....kai syntomos tha dosei toso pono ston Prime Robert, pou tha ksehasti kai tha afisi ton eafto tou anoihto ston ehthro kai o Robert tha patheir tromeri zimia - kai tha arhisi kainourgio meros tis zois tou...pou mou aresei...gia na doume en tha sou aresei kai sena..
Αλλάζει τόσο πολύ ιστορία??? Φυσικά και έχω το ενδιαφέρον να το δω :)))))
...kai, tha eksafanistei i Aganthi gia mines kai tha paei o Robert me mpoutana...nai, arketa paraksena (as min ksehasoume oti tha faei agrio ksilo o Robert apo enan Anadir
) i ( ? den ksero...
Σε πολλές περιπέτειες βλέπω οτι μπαίνει :)
Φυσικά θα συνεχίσω το διάβασμα... Ελπίζω εσύ να έχεις την υπομονή να βοηθάς..
Δεν χρειάζομαι υπομονή, με κάθε ερώτηση από εσένα, επίσης επωφελούμε και εγώ. Με κάποιο τρόπο, το να κάνεις ερωτήσεις, ανοίγει τις σκέψεις μου σε νέους τρόπους να βλέπω/φαντάζομαι τι συνέβη. Μου αρέσει, έτσι, και εγώ σε ευχαριστώ.