You have my sympathy Sir. I'm Filipino, I personally know a lot of Western guys with similar experiences. Jesus Christ loves you and can guide you into the best most efficient and happy life for you, no matter where you're at. You can even marry again, King David was also divorced by his first wife and married again: https://steemit.com/christianity/@biblenerd/king-david-remarried-after-divorce-by-first-wife