Dear Diary: My Father Has a Flu Today but He is Faint-Hearted about it

I never went to see my father as a figure of what I am trying to do about my medical condition. I am talking about not giving up while my father with just a bout of flu or having to talk about his hypertension will just leave him talking about his death for he is nerveless for dealing with such small medical malady compared to mine.

My father has long given-up on me, he did not even do anything to step up and work something for my kidney transplant and I just survived because my brother was the one that kept me from conking out for good and I think that it also was a big mistake tho, like now, I am like a work just a half way done and then was left out.

Quite a weird person sometimes my father is. There is one instance that we were just going home and then there is this man on his bike blocking our way until he stopped, pulled his bike off the road and then we can finally pass through. As we passed along he stopped and opened the door and told the person that he was sorry, the freaking retarded probably high on drugs person nodded back and I was like @-@ because I couldn't believe what I have just witnessed.

It just means that he was resigned not to assert his rights on that instance for example and also at one time when the car is still a taxi and a bus rear-ended it. It has an insurance but he didn't worked to use it, citing that it was only a scam by the transportation office that issued it and also he didn't even make a settlement at least to the driver of the bus even though he went to our home to talk about it citing that the bus company will just back him up and we won't win. So my brother who owns the car shouldered the cost of repair.

I just wish that my father is stronger than me. I just wished that he is a fighter of rights. I just wish that he is not nerveless so I can look up to him and find strength and courage so that at least I have something to lean on at this time of crisis in my life.