I Have no Motivation To Do anything Today, Even Watching Movies Doesn't Interest Me

It's not what I see in the world today, even BTC is experiencing a slump in price. There is also the factor that made the prices to drop like a meteor, the Corona virus which everybody is not expecting and thus affected the trade world wide, even entire countries are in a lockdown.

People are starting to panic buy and worse if my family member would fall ill. My funds are in my wallet right now and I will get forced to withdraw with these low prices. Well anyway I have no control over it so worrying about it won't do me any good.

I just wished that I could just sleep and when I finally wake up all of these things are over. I would also accept if I would wake up I am already dead, I am not for this world anyways, problems are sandwich in my life both medically and financially.

I am just feeling not good right now because of my Parathyroid medicine, it is making me feel nauseous every single day and I am only surviving it because of my near normal red blood cell or CBC test results and had it not for that I will not be able to endure its nasty side-effects.

I am just letting my life run its course but it doesn't mean that it is easy, it is too hard and if only is that easy to end it all at a pull of a trigger I would have done it already but my body is still going and going, it is a very tough nut to crack and I hate it especially now that currently with all these happening in the world it gets harder for me to survive my life.