It's My Dialysis Session Today And My Plan Is To Eat While Hooked-up Again

I am just glad that I had been scheduled on second set or batch of patients that would get dialyzed because lately I was being scheduled at 5:30 AM which is why my mother/parents would get up so early in the morning so that they can prepare things like the food that I would eat and they would eat, the car, and wheeling me to and from the bathroom, and all that.

It is unfortunate that I am causing them such trouble because of my need to go to the dialysis center. If only I was able to walk like before then I wouldn't even like for them to even think of my situation.

But things had gotten south with regards to what happened to my body where my bones grew weak and I suffered bone changes like scoliosis and leontiasis affecting my facial bone with its overgrowth thereby affecting the way I eat and even my breathing because the curvature of my spine had been a big factor in squeezing my internal organs particularly my lungs.

So it is just impossible to really not get some help and that help will just have to come from my closest relatives that cares for me the most, my parents.

So I am praying that soon I would like to free them from a burden because of me and give them back the repayment that they well deserved. I am just thinking of renovating this house as soon as I am sure that I can be able to accomplish that without a compromise to my immediate and current medical needs.

Anyway that is my plan and I hope that God would always bless my plans because I do think that they are not too much to ask.

I am happy that at least I am not much of a burden financially all because of my ability to earn at least some money form what I am doing from the Internet which is blogging. In that way I am sparing my parents and siblings from the problem of supporting my medical necessities as they themselves (my siblings) have a family of their own to worry and prioritize.

This day is another typical day for me at dialysis even though I really do not like to go anymore but I have to so that I can live and extend my life. I just am terrified to die a lingering death which is why I am still trying to go for my session twice a week. I can never muster the braveness to stop going for dialysis because of the said reason.

So I hope that my dialysis will go well again without much complication and discomfort. I will also try to eat while hooked-up so that maybe it will contribute to support my blood pressure and make me able to complete my session in the process until the final minutes of treatment. It does make me feel good after dialysis as I can really feel the energy that the food gives me after the session.

The plan now is to not eat much before we go so that I can feel hunger and will be able to eat more, the only issue was that it is hard to eat without my mother assisting me so I just have to manage it all on my own even though some of my nurses are willing to do it for me.