Juice Fast Day 2 - Feeling Raw
Hi Fellow Travellers
Day 1 was mixed. I made the juices and decided to go for fruit juice even though most people say it should be mainly vegetables. Dr Morse suggests fruits mainly. I felt OK and cycled 10 miles and was fine.
Every Tuesday, my 3 siblings and I have supper with all our children (cousins) and Yesterday I sat there whilst everyone was eating, feeling pretty sorry for myself. I have already gone right off the juices - even the fruit juices. And I really can't stand juices with veggies in like beetroot, carrot, spinach etc. They just taste revolting to me and I think I'm going to puke. And the hassle of cleaning the machine and preparing the juices doesn't inspire me much. But I am doing this not just for me, but for my wife too, to support her in her journey.
And like I suspected, the feelings started arising.I chose to say that I am feeling raw which is interesting given that I am only having raw food juices. I have actually found myself crying both Yesterday and this morning. My last therapist suggested that I cry at least once a day. It makes sense. We live in such a crazy world and there's so much suffering and madness, and there's so much pent up anger and sadness inside, it seems like a good thing to cry. And at the moment I am not using my usual strategies for suppressing the pain, although I still think that screens are a part of the strategy and I spend too much time on them.
I am struggling with thoughts about how long I can do this, so I just cancel those thoughts and keep it in the day. One day at a time as they say.
I also notice that my mind is coming up with strategies to get some food. I have a dialogue in my head that questions whether I can have a soup made with my Vitamix, because with that machine you can make raw soup. That conversation inside isn't great because it plugs in to unhealthy and perfectionist thinking that are common in addictive personalities.
So that's it so far for day 2.
Blessings and Love
Danny
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At the risk of adding to your struggle, some gentle advice; careful with the fruit juices, a lot of sugar in there. Perhaps add some inoffensive, tasteless veggies like courgette or cucumber with a bit of mint and a lime.