The Broken Hearted Writing Contest(MY BROKEN HEARTED LIFE💔😢😢

This is my entry to sir @tpkidkai , my "WASAK" Story😢

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I used to be happy in life together with my love ones, but suddenly my world collapsed when I found out something that almost killed me. 🔫My heart that time was stop beating💗, I dont understand why its happening to me. In my entire life i always do good, just to let him know that im good to him and loyal, but why he keeps hurting me😢. My husband cheated me , the person I love hurt me😢💔. Its very painfull to onow that he doing evil actions in our relationship. My heart💔 was so crushed that time, I can't explain 😣, the pain I have on that moment, I realize that his not been good to me. I never caught him together with the girl but the thing I found a kiss mark on his neck all over his neck, that's proved me of his wrong doing. I asked him
ME:what did you do while away from us? Are you cheated on us with our kids? How could you do this?
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He never answer, I cried many times even at night I cant able to sleep, I want to know everything WHY? I slapped him, I punched him, all I can do that time is to release the pain.😢😢I cry and cry, in a while he answered me but I never convinced with his answer.
HIM I dont cheat, what you've seen on my neck , its a mosquito bite.
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How dare you to lie to me, I dont believe him, cause I know it , it was a kissmark. Emagine including his back neck theres also a kissmark. I count his kissmark it is almost 10. Its realy painfull, I cant even work properly that moment, I cant able to take care of my children. I was depressed and upset. He never told me what was happen, but I made a search for my own to know everything what his hiding from us. Before the week end I do everything to find evidence. while his not in our room, I check his phone , because its always in off mode , so I wonder whats something on it. I never hesitate to open it, I turn on his phone and that was exactly heartbreaking cause I found out its a girl who did it and not a mosquito😢😢😢 I never realize earlier how worst my husband is, he could realy hurt us without any hesitation.
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So I decided to confront him, I was never let the day to end without asking him.
ME How could you do this to me, to us your children, you lie to us.
HIMNo, I was not, I dont cheated to you.
ME How can you explain this, you are'nt pity on us of our child.😢😢

My tears falling down again, I cry louder cause I cant breath. My heart is something I cant explain that very exagerating pain. I cried to release the pain, I told him.
ME Are you still happy with me? Did I do something wrong to push you to lie or cheat me? Am I not enough for you? What does the other girls have that dont have me?😢😢😢😢Are you still love us with our kids?

A lot of question I ask him but he only reply😱

HIM Im not cheated on you, all of you. I was drunk that time because my friends invited me to hang out, I cant refuse with them, but I never expected that I am to much drunk and cant remember anything, but I promise I never used the other girl. I dont have girls.

Im crying while telling me all about he did, while away from us. I asked him

ME What about the call and text you deleted on your phone if not a bad issue, so why you deleted it?
HIMIts not what you think, ILove you and I cant afford to cheat you.
ME Liar!!! During that time are you forgeted that you have a family? A wife, A kids? How dare you to do this to us. Did you even think that I sacrifice myself ro be no one, to take care of you and our kids?😢 to be a good wife and a good mother😢😢
HIM Im sorry if I hurt you. I did'nt mean to hurt you, but I swear I dont have a girl. Its my mistake to go with my friends.
ME No its not a mistake, it is your choice to hurt us. I dont know if I can trust you anymore. You failed me, you hurt us so much, I hate you, I hate you. The moment you cheated us, you forget that you are marriage😢

He become quiet of our conversation, he hug me but I dont feel it if it is a sincere. I was very upset and depress, and I want to go away and leave him but i realize i have a kids needs me. I cant afford to give them a hroken family cause I grow up with a complete family. I told him
ME Tell me if you wanted me in your life, if you still love me or not. If your not happy with me, even now I go and leave you but dont expect the kids would yours because it will not happen. My kids is mine.
HIM Forgive me for my mistake, but I cant lost you. I love you. Please forgive me.

He cried when I mention him about leaving, he said...

HIM It will not happened again.

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I forgive him, I give him a second chance even if it is hurts but I still love him and our kids need him.

*ONE YEAR LATER
I forgive him, cause I thought, he will change but after a year. I found out again earlier that his having a fling on a messenger.
It was crazy to do this, but I admit, I find way after he hurt me, I find way to access his account on facebook without his knowing. And same as usual im hurt again. I found out that he chatted a girl and they have vediocall also. I saw that but I have'nt read their converstaion cause it was deleted, but I saw it in my two eyes that their having conversation and vediocall and disappear in a seconds. It was deleted, I dont want to think bad issue, but if their conversation is not bad, why he deleted it. What was the point of deleted those messages. It was happening to me now ans i have doubt why? I need your opinion steemians, what was the thing?
His not here, he still in a work and nextmonth he will come home and I want to ask him about that, but Im afraid if were arguing again😢😢

I want to ask him in personal. For now im waiting when he got home to make it clear, what was those thing I've seen.
I dont want to be hurt again, cause Im done with that. Im hoping that everything is okay.
Lord please help me , I need you, and give me a courage to get through this situation.😢😢 why I always suffering this man. All i did is to give love him, why he cant love me in return😢😢

"siguro sobrang mabait lang siguro ako, kaya ako paulit ulit na ginagago" hindi ko naman kayang magluko, 😢ako yung nasasaktan pag ginawa ko yan, gusto ko ibalik sa kanya yung mga pasakit na binigay niya sa akin. Pero hindi ko kaya😢 hindi kasing tibay ng pagmumukha niya ang puso ko. Bakit ba, yung naging mabuti laging niluluko, guys ano ba ang gagawin ko😢😢😢 i need your advice. Hanggang dito nalang.

God bless steemians..

SOAR HIGH, FLY HIGH STEEMIANS

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