It's Raining Memories
Today marks my first month as being unemployed. Yes, I gave up my career last month for personal reasons.
Some of you here know that I was a NICU nurse. Giving up was a decision I spent weeks mulling over. And, I never regret it. However, sometimes I miss my routine at work. It’s raining here today. So allow me to reminisce my happy and sad memories there at may former workplace.
HAPPY MEMORIES
Taking care of precious babies has been extremely rewarding. I never forget the success stories of our NICU graduates. For almost 5 years in service, I’ve witness ceaseless battles and been a part of giving tender love and care for many tiny lives. The most unforgettable for me is the tiniest fighter that we nurtured for 2 months. Some of you perhaps remember her story.
Disclaimer: These photos have consent from the mother.
I constantly check on her. The latest update is that they have found out that the baby have a special condition called microcephaly.
There are so many things that I miss. I miss the deafening and demanding cry of the babies. Yes it’s stressful. If you are having a hard time in taking care one baby, imagine us looking after 6-8 babies per shift.Yet, this cute babies have the ability to take our stress away. Inside me, I have this response called “cute aggression”. Meaning I always have the desire to squeeze or giggle on adorable and cute babies. You may say that it’s the best job in the hospital haha. I also miss carrying, bathing, feeding, and even changing diapers. But what I miss the most is the great feeling upon hearing the mothers who simply mouth the words “thank you for taking care of our precious son or daughter”. Seeing the results of our efforts and expertise is very fulfilling.
I also miss my colleagues of course.
when my colleagues throw a bridal shower for me
The happiness of those times is still vivid in my memory.
SAD MEMORIES
Because we handle the most vulnerable patients, there are sad situations that is unavoidable. It’s difficult for us healthcare teams to let go of a critically ill patients. I recall that during my 5 years there in the hospital, I encountered 2 infant loss in my shifts. I feel sorry for the family, it’s emotionally draining for us too. Deep inside, we cry with them. But we have to get ourselves together to support the grieving family.
Moving on, one thing that I will also never forget is what happened in 2018.
The great flood in the city where I worked
I still can recall how did I get into my workplace that time. I had no choice but to cross the dirty water of flood. Being in healthcare is tough. We have to report to our duty no matter what happens, even during calamity. Especially, also even during global health crisis like this.
When the situation is okay, I will surely visit there again.
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