For a long time I thought about not allowing anyone to hurt me, to be stronger than someone could overcome, to be so alert that they would not take me for granted, not to mourn the wounds I had in my soul, because I wanted to be strong , I wanted to be unbreakable for the world, that when they looked at me they said nothing could have stopped it and nothing could overthrow it.

That was my dream. After so much suffering, I wanted to be strong.

In which I'm wrong? What was my mistake?

My mistake was in how I saw being strong, enclosing all my emotions in a corner of my heart, and while I was not crying I was filled with anger and resentment.

While trying to hide what I felt, I did not realize that insensitivity was taking over me. I could no longer feel, joy, peace, love; not even compassion for the pain of others. But what about me? I told myself one day when I woke up. I was unrecognizable what I was feeling and I did not like what I was now.

I spent so much time locking my emotions in a corner of my heart that I did not realize I was making my own jail. And I wanted to get out of that emotional state as quickly as possible. I remember that I said to myself: and now to whom I ask for help and this beautiful verse came to me in the book of Psalms chapter 27 that says:

I will lift up mine eyes unto the hills, from whence cometh my help. My help cometh from the Lord, which made heaven and earth. Psalm 121:1-2

That verse reminded me that if we humble ourselves to our God and Father he will never abandon us, he is always present to help us. And at that moment I asked for your help so that the heart of stone was removed and in its place the Lord put a heart sensitive to his voice sensitive to his presence, a heart full of the fruit of his Spirit, full love, joy, peace, patience , kindness, goodness, faith, temperance, full of meekness, a heart full of Him.

Now every time I feel that someone wants to hurt you in some way, I run into the presence of my loving Heavenly Father and ask for strength to endure the bad weather and I ask that your help be on me, if I have to cry, I will cry but in his presence where I can be consoled by Him, and lifted up by His mighty hand.

Do not close your heart, open it completely that our God will take charge of protecting it.

If you are going through something similar ask the Lord to break the stone of your heart and put in its place one sensitive to his voice and thirsty for his presence.

And I will give them one heart, and I will put a new spirit within you; and I will take the stony heart out of their flesh, and will give them an heart of flesh: That they may walk in my statutes, and keep mine ordinances, and do them: and they shall be my people, and I will be their God. Ezekiel 11:19-20

Pray with me: Father I know that I have failed you and I apologize, I have hardened my heart in such a way that I have become insensible to your voice and I beg you to forgive me, I do not want to live far from your presence, I want to live to the light of your love and today I recognize that only you can help me, to break this heart of stone and give me a heart of flesh, sensitive to your presence, to your voice, I pray to you, my Father, that you fill my life with your love, to give you praises, with a pure and thirsty heart, I love you my Heavenly Father, in the name of Jesus Christ, Amen.