How Can I Celebrate if I am Still in Mourn?

Hello Steemians😊😊😊

It's been 2 months already I think, since my last visit here in this platform. Those 2 months that I've been away had lots of happenings. Some are good and some are bad.

I don't actually want to share those bad moments, but I think I should. Last February 02,2022 supposed to be the lucky day of someone and I also thought that for me, but it turns out to be the saddest day of my life instead of happiest . My father died that day while I am beside him. I can't believed it that in an instance right that moment he's gone. It's so hard for me to accept it because that afternoon he was so healthy. We took a snack because I bought one and an hour later his gone.

Who would accept it? But I don't have a choice but to accept it. My sister is still there and she need me. I will took care of her since it's what my father wanted me to do. I must accept what happened and move on. Continue my life. I know he is still with us. Actually the two of them. My mother and father . I know they will guide us.

Now I am still in mourning on what had happen. But I am starting to walk step by step. And this 5th year Anniversary that my boyfriend and I celebrated is one of those steps. I am not that happy but even a little it helped me ease the pain. I just bought a cake and we had a simple drink. So far so good. I am so thankful for my boyfriend because he is always with me from the start. I am so lucky having him in my life.

That's all for now my dear steemians. Again I am so sorry for not having here lately. I will catch up with you some other time. I hope for your kind consideration. Take care always and God bless.

truly yours,

@flordecar26