Current State of My Life

in #blog6 years ago

I just got out of the hospital. Now I'm back in the house all my childhood abuse happened. I got charged back on Upwork while I was in the hospital, so I feel like I'm not good enough. Also, the guy I was ghost writing for, who I met while I was with Earth Nation never paid me, and after reassuring me that he had nothing to do with Earth Nation (unsolicited, unprompted, just volunteering this information out of the blue) tried to get my credit card information. Also he has my address now, so I feel like I'm going to be murdered in my sleep. I feel horrible. I can't think on this medicine. And the other medicine doesn't even help me sleep. I just made an ass out of myself on Reddit because my brain is broken and I have a hair trigger hypothalmus that's just begging to go off on another rollercoaster.

But I brought people to tears with my advice in the hospital. If the people I talked to want to be friends, they have my number. Currently, I feel stupid because I'm just setting myself up to be let down. Also, I feel like I failed my mission, but I won't go into that because I don't want to feed my delusions any more.

Oh, some crack head in the hospital put her soaked, shit-stained underwear in with my bag of clothes so I have to burn them now.

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I feel your pain. I hope you get well soon. Greetings from Venezuela.

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Hope you get well soon. Greetings
From Venezuela.

                 - sansoncarrasco


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Thank you very much! :)

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Thats horrible man, you will get through this. I know from the articles ive read you are a good writer and very intelligent. Sending healing vibes <333

Thanks, I really appreciate that you read my stuff. I need to be more diligent to read through Steemit content. Most of my attention is put on Reddit, just by virtue that it's organized in a more appealing way. I hope you stay strong yourself and sending good vibes our way as well :)

:] ty, havent done reddit yet. Be cool if the started to use reddcoin