“Expression through Creation”
So lately I’ve been lacking motivation. The creative part is there. I have so many ideas and so many different inspirations but I just haven’t had the push to dive head first into my creative pool.
It bothers me just a bit that I have this inability to put a wall between my real life responsibilities and my free time. Now I can justify this like most procrastinators and claim exhaustion. You know the “I’m just so tired” excuse. But I’m not. I really don’t get much sleep but it doesn’t really effect me mentally. I’m still capable of free and/or critical thought. I’m still very aware and present. The truth is, I just can’t seem to make room in my schedule at this period of time in my life to be a creator.
This saddens me.
Sometimes I feel trapped in my own mind thinking of solutions to make my financial life less complicated and more stabilized. Thinking of ways to be a better parent. Pondering over the routes I have to take to buy a home to give more security to my family.
I’m so distracted by my own thoughts, from the same mind that I create with, that I lose focus on destressing and expressing myself.
I never want this to be a problem for my daughter. I never want any child or adult to ever feel constricted by responsibility. Trust me when I say this. I am a responsible person. I take care of my priorities. Except sometimes my priorities are mixed up and my well being is neglected.
So to anybody who is a parent. Please make sure your children have an understanding of expression. Teach them balance. Show them how to be an adult while maintaining their inner child.
To the adults that feel they are overwhelmed by life and have nothing to offer but a salary. That’s not true. We are so much more then workhorses. We aren’t just assest to some corporation. We are thinkers. Lovers. Creators. We are capable of great things. Just look at the people before us. Look at the great innovators of life. Changing the world as we know it.
Let’s be more than a 9-5. I know I’m working on it. Are you?