Life

"I don't know how people deal with severe depression ... I don't know how to express the excessive depressed feelings !!

Sometimes there is no proper word to describe how you're feeling ... Some days each and everything goes against you ... Nothing seems right ... Nothing can fix this !!

People will get you wrong ... People will always get you wrong !!

Even breathing becomes painful ... Everything is absolutely okay to the whole world except to yourself ... Everything seems normal from the other side, but not from your side !!

I have always been told that I've a better life than a lot of people ... Sometimes even a better life can't help ... Who wanted a better life? ... 'Better' is a relative term ... What's better to you, can be the worst to me !!

Some days I feel like giving up on everyone and everything ... I don't feel like sleeping ... I don't feel like staying awake ... I don't feel like writing ... I don't feel like having food or talking with anyone or doing anything anymore !!

I feel tired, lost and dead inside !!

Breathing doesn't always mean a human is alive ... A human can breathe, walk, smile, talk, do every normal stuff and still stay dead ... That death is invisible ... That death had a secret funeral inside where nobody was invited !!

People see someone crying and they feel bad ... If someone can cry when they feel like crying, that someone is blessed ... Have you ever seen someone who desperately wants to cry but can't? ... You saw but you didn't notice !!

We see a lot of things around but we don't notice ... We never feel the presence of someone or something until it's gone !!

There are things we can't explain ... There are things we feel inside but we don't know why we're feeling this way ... Not everything have a proper justified reason !!

A baby can scream and cry when it's toy gets broken ... A person can smile when their parents die ... If I ask you, which one is more painful?

You'd say, parents' death ... What if I say, the baby is feeling more pain? ... It happens ... How can you measure other's pain in your own scale of measurement? ... You can't !!

Time heals everything ... But what if I can't survive until that specific time?

Lights will guide me home ... What if I don't have a home?

What if nobody and nothing can fix me?

Will you apologize, Coldplay? Will you?" :)!