Life is getting harder after the pandemic, unexpected sunset gives a ray of hope.

On the surface, things are getting more energetic and busy as people are trying to pick up all the pieces during the sudden pandemic lockdown. Most people are trying their best to make a living again after about three months lockdown. Life is getting harder as I still could not get a new job though some people gave me some hope of a part time job in a month. Now I have stopped to build up such a high hope after my other friend told me most companies have stopped recruiting for new employees. Luckily I could still survive on my savings, but this will not last forever. Unexpected expenses like insurance and dental bills have taken a big bite into my limited fund.

I should be packing up my things and prepare to move away to the countryside as this would help cutting down the maintenance cost. But I seemed to keep on finding excuses to remain in procrastination. I think I am afraid to leave my comfort zone and to leave all the old way of life. I still keep on hoping that I would find a new job so that I could still live in the city.

Realistically, the chance of getting a new job, a part time one, is very slim. There’s so much competition and fewer opportunities to get a foot into any establishment. Perhaps I still could not face the fact that I can no longer work in the field which I had enjoyed so much in the past. What should I do?! In my mind, it’s logical that I should move out of the city before the of this year. But I still feel stuck and frozen somehow.

I am writing this post to help myself thinking things through and to bring my fear of drastic changes into the open! I hope this will help with psychological progression out of this stalemate which has been going on for several months. Perhaps I need someone to kick my backside so that I would make the move out if this situation.

Whenever I wanted to start with my packing of my belongings, there seemed to be strange obstacles thrown my way, making it very difficult to achieve much in a brief moment. Praying for strength and wisdom to guide me in the right direction.

Good luck and take care.