Heart Sincerity of a Woman..

This afternoon Fitri came to watch me play futsal. My spell came with Vina. A close friend of this Fitri is so beautiful and his smile is so sweet beats cotton candy. Yes indeed I like Vina, no matter he's a friend of my ex, but still I want to be close to Vina.

"Hi Zal, it's done futsalnya yes, this I bring water with the same towel."

I know if Fitri is actually still expecting me, seen from the way she looks at me with hope and feeling, her attention to me also seen. But I do not like Fitri, so I do not care and will be cool to him.

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"Yes thanks Fitri yes. Eh there Vina also yes? How are you doing Vina? The more beautiful aja. "
"Yeah hehe I invited Fitri here, I'm good news. Ah you can just gombal Zal. "

Still I was ignorant to Fitri and even more open to Vina. Either Fitri noticed or not. Though I hope that Fitri realize that I no longer love him and more expect Vina who fill my days to become more colorful.

After coming home I was still thinking of Vina and hoping she responded to me. Immediately I took my cell phone and contacted Vina.

"Hallo, Vina tonight there is a show? I want to invite you out to dinner. "
"Eh Rizal, I happen to be the same Fitri nih. All right, Fitri invited not? "
"No, I want to eat together with you. You go home first I'll pick up at your house let Fitri do not know. "
"Ok I'm going home now."

I turned off my cell phone and headed straight for Vina's house and took it to the romantic diner and the seats I had ordered with candles and flower arrangements all around.

"Wow beautiful Zal, this is true you baseball invite wrong? Is not Fitri supposed to be here with you? "
"Nah Vin, I purposely take you here with a romantic atmosphere like this. You're okay I'm invited here? "

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Vina did not answer instead she hugged me spontaneously. Maybe this indicates that Vina is happy to be brought here. I think this is more than the yellow light that Vina gave to me who was trying to approach her.

"Vin, I think I like you, we've known for a long time and I want us to know more closely. Do you want?"
"But ... What about Fitri? He's still expecting you. "
"Let Fitri, she'll know if I do not love her anymore."
"But I…"
"Shhhhh, it's just an Iya or NO Vin."
"I..i..iya deh I want to know close to you."

After that night I got closer to Vina. We always spend time with each day. Really, the days are very beautiful if it is passed with Vina. However, Fitri still contacted me and paid attention to me even though it was the slightest concern, even though I did not care about her but Fitri was still good to me.

My phone rang, there was a call from my college friend on campus and told me to come soon. On the way to campus in the afternoon before the maghrib with a sudden motorcycling somehow chronology I was lying in the hospital with bandages bandage that wrapped my legs and I also can not feel my legs, seemed numb. It may be cracked or even broken. As I looked around there was Fitri sleeping on the mattress I slept in sitting position with my head and arms embracing my unharmed hand. As if he wants to be always beside me and do not want to lose me.

"Fitri wake up fit ..."
I woke Fitri by slowly pulling my hand that he had embraced. It turns out that Fitri is beautiful also if again sleeping. Indeed, during the courtship I had never seen Fitri's sleeping face. I slowly wiped his hair because he did not wake up.

"Eh Rizal already realized well, sorry yes I overslept."
"Yeah it's okay anyway this is already almost 11 pm. Oh yes why me? How am I here? Then can you be here too? "
"So last time you went to campus, you were hit by a car, but the car ran off just like that, I kept getting contacted by your friend if you were unconscious and again taken to the hospital by ambulance, so I'm here."
"Oh, I see. Keep my legs why? It's on this line. "
"Your feet are cracked Zal"
"Gosh's so bad. But you do not have to wait for me until this late. You better go home, it's night too, "
"No ah Zal, I want to wait for you aja, anyways I've permission kok to my parents."



For months I lay on this mattress, waiting for my feet to recover, and that's how long Fitri is there every day to accompany me, taking care of me and comforting me until Fitri also guides me to walk normally again. I did not see Vina for months.

Fit thanks ya you very well, so far you are taking care of me till I recovered. Sorry to bother you. "
"Yeah equally Zal, I'm okay I'm sincere."
"By the way Vina where did not come here?"
"Vina said she went to her grandmother's house. I do not know too, he is now rarely appear and rarely contact me, "

Finally I was allowed to go home and was able to walk again even has recovered completely. It's all thanks to Fitri who took good care of me. When traveling to the house, I like to see Vina was riding the same guy with the same direction towards me and he was in front of me. Immediately I contacted him to confirm the truth. Apparently he picked up my phone and really what Fitri said, Vina reason that was visiting his grandmother. Yet not at all.
I was disappointed with Vina, she was not really serious to me. He just made fun of me, and I realized that there is a figure of Fitri who is so sincere and sincere love me with all my heart. I'm sorry I did not care about him and I'm going to apologize and want to repeat all over. I will open my heart again for Fitri.

A week went by and I planned to surprise Fitri. Immediately I headed to Fitri's house not far from my house. After approaching Fitri's house I was startled by the white flag hanging in front of his house. There was Vina walking and crying in front of Fitri's house. I run away and admonish Vina.

"What is this Vina? Why is there a white flag in Fitri's house? Then why are you crying? "
"Yes Zal, Fitri died this morning. She's not strong enough to fight her cancer. "
"Cancer? Since when? How come I do not know? "
"Actually a long time ago, I had salute to Fitri, he was so strong against the disease, sorry I did not tell this to you before because this is the request of Fitri herself who do not want you to know. Fitri can be strong all along because there is encouragement for him, because there are people he loves, because there is a reason he strong to fight his illness so he tried hard to make his loved ones happy, and he was happy yesterday could take care of the person to recover from his illness. That person is you Rizal! I deliberately did not visit you yesterday and let Fitri take care of you because I already feel guilty for snatching you from her. Therefore I want to make Fitri happy to be beside her loved ones. Oh yeah, he previously left this letter for you. "

I did not answer the words from Vina, I immediately took the letter and immediately I read it with a sense of regret and hold back tears that seemed to want to spill all its contents.

Dear Rizal,
Rizal, I'm sorry that has always interrupted your life. I know you no longer care about me, and I also know if you like Vina, I know that and I'm not angry with anyone because all this is your choice.
I'm sorry too because I have covered my illness from you, because I do not want you to think about my illness, I just want to make the person I love be happy. Seeing you smiling I'm happy and another one, I'm so grateful also yesterday has been given the chance to laugh with you, take care of you, and have taken care of you until you recover from your illness. It was the most beautiful moment of my life with you Zal. I promise not to forget the moment.
Once again I'm sorry, I can not be by your side forever. But I will always pray the best for you. I will always be by your side with the white wings I have in another world and I will always keep an eye on you. Because I love you so much Rizal!
Love You,
Fitr

Reading the letter I could not hold back my tears and I immediately ran to the body of Fitri with great regret and guilt. I still give the roses that I brought from home because I will deliberately give to Fitri. But now Fitri who received it is no longer animate.

"Fitri got up fit! Get up! I have a surprise for you! I bring your favorite roses and I want us to be rich again! Fit I'm sorry for my indifference to you lately. I'm sorry Fit! Please Fit answer me! "

I deeply regret for not being able to express my heart and to express my apologies that have been misunderstood. I can not convey it directly to you who are still alive. But now you are in the seventh heaven with the other beautiful fairies.

From that moment on I promise not to waste my sincere devotee, whether it comes from the past or from someone I've just met even though I'll be nice. Never will I ignore people again. I learned a lot from Fitri figure what is the meaning of sincerity, sincerity, affection and other good things from Fitri. Goodbye Fitri hope you calm in nature there dear.