Real life

Life is not all about happiness.
Sometimes you just need to pretend to be happy but you aren't. When you feel that you really empty and helpless. I feel I'm fighting alone in my life and it's to hard. Thinking that no one supporting you because they are too busy judging you.
I need a friend to talk too, I need a family to comfort me and accept who I am, but the big question is. Where are they? Well, I came from broken family. My mother found her destiny to a yung man and left my father is here but seems he's not around because he always drunk. I have 4 siblings and I am the youngest but they have their own family. But that is not the reason to give up. I have many dreams and I need to be strong and brave. I am contented with my life not my status in life. I want to prove to all people that I can do better.
Life only comes around once they thinking I'm crazy and sometimes weird but what should I do? I am just enjoying my life. There's many reasons to be happy.