What's Next?

I've never wanted a regular job in corporate America. It has it's benefits, sure. I have steady pay and job security. I never worry about making sure I have enough money to eat, pay my bills, or clothe my child. However, I have never really wanted a job selling insurance. Once in a meeting for the top sales agents, I made an off handed comment (in front of everyone) that no one grows up dreaming of being an insurance agent. I said it to the one of our CEOs. Um, oops. Luckily, when he asked me what I wanted to be I told him I wanted to be a circus acrobat (well, I wasn't lying). He laughed it off. How many people get to be circus acrobats?
I never dreamed of sitting at a desk 40 hours a week. I've tried to bring joy into what I do. I try to do that with everything I do. I've even led workshops on how to sell better, how to be happier at your job, etc. I actually LOVE doing that. Too bad I can't be a motivational speaker (or a circus acrobat). My more realistic dreams have included being a dancer (if stripping counts I can check that off my list). I really wanted to be a famous ballerina. Then I wanted to be a model. That led me to adult modeling, and that led me to stripping. I had bad days like everyone does at EVERY job, but for the most part I was pretty happy. It wasn't exactly an easy job while trying to raise a kid. Luckily, I kept going to school. I took FOREVER in school. I started my undergraduate degree in 2005 and finished it in 2014.That is a LONG time for an undergraduate degree, but I studied A LOT of stuff. Mostly I studied human biology and psychology. Do I regret it? Absolutely not! I learned SO much.
After graduating I got a job in sales. Well, a BA in psychology and almost a decade stripping (very successfully I might add) prepared be very well to be in sales. Sitting behind a desk talking to people 40 hours a week... SO NOT MY DREAM JOB!
When I got the job, I decided that I was going to save up and get my masters in therapy. I'm still considering it. I would love to specialize in sex and relationships. That would be a ton of work while working full-time, raising a child, and trying to make time for myself (yoga is my me time) and for my partner (my husband @cryptokeepr who is SO supportive). Maybe that is not the most realistic goal. Circus acrobat... again maybe not the most realistic goal for someone with as little free time as I have.
So, I started camming. I found out to be successful at being an online cam model something is need that I am lacking: a schedule and time. Crap.
So what's next? I've found that a site called clips for sale. Maybe I should make pre-made videos and photos for extra cash? I clean up nicely (or at least I think I do... as do many others):

But what next? What do I want to accomplish with my life other than getting really good at yoga, being as good of a mom and wife as I can be?

I guess only time will tell... But I wish I just knew what I wanted to do!!! I need to put some energy into discovering what I truly want out of life. There are so many things that I already love in my life, but the largest portion of my awake time is spent at a job that isn't fulfilling. So... what's next?