Once There Was A Girl Who Pursued Her Dreams
Once there was a girl who dreamed of finishing her studies though she is already a mom. And that girl was me. I have never finished college and I always dream that I am at a school and listening to my professor and answering the questions. Last 2014 I decided to go back to school, finish my course and get a degree since my sister already graduated college that year. I went to Saint Augustine College in Mangagoy Bislig City Surigao del Sur. I felt so nervous when I enrolled I even asked my sister to go with me and help me. It just felt so weird and I just felt so overwhelmed and excited that time that I can't think straight. I'm glad she's there to help me.
And as the school year started I met so many friends and some of them are also a mom like me,some are single mom. At first I was so hesitant,what if I am too old to go back to college. What if I won't be able to adjust,it was such a long time since I studied at MSU. At that time it was 7 years ago since I left college and the only thing I regret is that I did not finish my study first. Maybe just maybe I am already a lawyer now and our lives could have changed. I could have helped all my siblings to finish their studies too. I could have made my parents more proud if I am already a lawyer. But there is no more room for regret the damage has been done. And I can't just keep on thinking about my what if's. I have my two loving kids so why should I think about the past. The only thing I can do is make up for the lost time,g back to study for our future.
All was well planned already,I will go back to college and get a degree and get a good life for me and my kids. As I was studying I have to travel an hour just to go to school and I have to go home every night to take care of my kids. It was not as easy as I expected,in fact it was hard for me to balance my time and budget the small money that I have. I thought I have enough just for me to finish that one semester,it turns out that its not. Well we have unexpected situations and I can't have the all my money for my studies only. I have to spend it for my kids and if we need something at home I also have to give. My mom is a government employee and sadly her salary is not enough for our growing family. With growing counts of her grand children,life gets harder for us.So no matter how much I want to finish that semester I have to stop because I no longer have the resources.
My dream of becoming a lawyer is haunting me until now. I know its all my fault and I have to deal with the consequences. There were nights that I dreamed of me inside a classroom and studying,and when I woke up I'm in my bed. I feel so empty and I feel like I need to do something about it. I envy my classmates who graduated,as I see their posts about them pursuing their dreams until now,some have become policeman and policewoman,others became nurses and doctors too. Some are about to graduate this year,I am happy for them too and I wish that someday its not yet too late for me to go back to my studies. I have found hope with the news coming up that there will be free tuition fees for all the Universities in the Philippines,I wish that could be followed because I will grab that opportunity and will never let go of that. But I'm actually saving so that one day I could tell other parents out there about what I did,to inspire others and help them too. Someday I can proudly tell them "once there was a single mom who dreamed of finishing college and never loose hope,and because she didn't give up with her dreams she was able to reach her dreams,and that mom was me".
They said its never too late to go back t school and that the school will always welcomes you back no matter how old you are. I too believe that education never chooses their student. I'm planning to enroll this year,maybe this June or the second semester on November. Hoping that I can save more to continue my studies. I only have 2 more years to finish my course which is Bachelor of Arts in Political Science and after that I will proceed to LAW if God will forbid. I can make it if I will just put my heart and mind to it. With the help of our Almighty God and my family and bit of sidelines here on my online job I know I can achieve my goal.