Sometimes we need to add something nice in our daily life

This morning I woke up earlier than usual and even if when it happens I feel myself so sleepy, I have to say that I appreciate that moments when the entire home is still sleeping. Silence, quiet, the smell of coffe, everything seems to have a different meanings in the earlier hours of the day, especially in this season, when the dark come soon.

While I'm drinking the first coffee of the morning, I thought about my past life. It was not a simple life (and sure, I'm not a "simple" woman ^_^), but every experience, as bad as it was, gave me something that make myself as I'm today. 

I always say that I lived more lives in one, some of them were nice and pretty quiet, more of them were really dark moments. I call my dark periods "dark places", from the book of J. Ellroy, a writer that I love so much, but this is another story.

I don't love to talk about my "dark places", because I prefer to keep them closed in a sort of drawer in my mind and open just those drawers full of colored and funny things. I think it's the same approach I use for my artwork: if I'm in a bad mood, I take my brushes and my hands run to compose a funny subject. Doing this, I can close the drawer where I stored the "dark places" and it makes me feel better.

The only moments when I open that drawer is when someone who has similar experiences like mine ask me some tips, help or just some words of consolation, but it's never simple for me.

I'm writing this just to say that, even if it can sound a little strange, I have to thanks that "dark places", because it's just because of them that now I can really appreciate every little moment of happiness!

And yes, finally I can say that my life now is full of little moments of pure happiness and everything could happen to me, now I know that I really can "survive" and I really can enjoy my life for the most of the time.

It was not simple, it IS not simple  and every day I need to remember that I can do it, but it works for me and this is the reason because I love to post about everything nice happens arund me ^_^

See ya soon

Silvia