... A REAL STORY OF REPRESENTING, .. WHEN LOVE HAS BEEN ABOUT ....

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Bismillahir-Rahmaanir-Rahim ... Initially, I met him at an event held in my own house. The girl was very different from the other girls who were busy talking to men and in pairs.

While he was with a neat muslim clothes he wore to help my mama prepare dishes and all the needs in the event. Every now and then the girl plays in the park with cute little children, I see how soft she is with a sweet smile to the children.

From his attitude I was interested to know him. Finally with his confident dare to approach him and want to get acquainted with him. However, in fact he refused to shake hands with me, and just said, "I'm sorry ..." and went away from me.

How embarrassed I am to my friends who are around me. "This girl really really expensive!" And so many girls are actually competing to be my boyfriend. He wants to be acquainted! "I said.

From that incident I became intrigued with the girl. Then I find out about her. Apparently he is the only child of a friend business associate papa. Every time there is a meeting at the girl's house, I always go with Dad.

The girl named Nina, lecturing at the Faculty of Medicine and she's a child who does not like partying, spending, and wandering around like most of us.

I rarely see him if I go to his house; for various reasons I heard from his assistant: ill, again doing the task, or exhausting. Anyway, he never wants to get out.

Until one day me and dad were visiting his house. At that moment, Nina had just returned home with her neat clothing, visible down from the car. But not far forward he fell unconscious and his face looked very pale.

We were in the living room rushing out and his father was carrying to the room and asked for our help to contact the doctor. From the results of the doctor's examination, Nina should be hospitalized.

The next day, I came to the hospital intending to visit him. How shocked I was when I knew Nina had leukemia (blood cancer). I asked, "Why is the girl as gentle and so polite she has to experience it?".

My feelings for him now turned into pity and worry. After each lecture, I had to come to visit him. I found him crying often alone. Either that because no one is looking after it or because of illness suffered.

A few days at the hospital, Nina asked me out every time I entered. I went to her at home, but she never came out to meet me and just locked herself in the room.

I did not give up so easily, I tried calling Nina and hoping she would talk to me. However, he still did not want to pick up the phone from me, then I sent him a text to make him want to be my boyfriend, but no reply even his HP is disabled overnight.

The next day I dared to come to his house to apologize for my impotence. It turns out he will go to Makasar, to the village of his parents. Since his parents could not drive him, I offered to drive him, but Nina preferred to take a taxi on the grounds of not bothering anyone. Before boarding the car, she handed me a paper for her mama.

It breaks my heart when I read a sentence that reads, "Sorry at the moment I just want to concentrate on college." My heart crumbled and I came home feeling very upset. It was the first time I wanted to go out, but I was rejected.

Actually, I do not really like the relationship like that courtship because so many negative effects, until someone is willing to commit suicide because abandoned her lover -na'udzubillahi min dzalik.

But somehow when I saw Nina my heart was tempted to establish that relationship. Since the separation, I never saw him again until I graduated.

Then I worked in my family-owned company as the only heir. Seeing my perseverance at work, Daddy Nina, likes me until our relationship becomes intimate and I mean what I mean that I like Nina, her son, and it turns out Nina's daddy agreed to make me his daughter-in-law.

28 December 2016, to coincide with the feast of Eid al-Fitr, my parents and I stay in touch with Nina's family home with the intention to discuss an arranged marriage between me and Nina.

But at that time Nina has been hospitalized since Ramadan. When I meet, Nina looks very pale, weak, and her smile seems to disappear from her lips. That day our parents officially set us up. In fact I was asked to keep it because his parents were going abroad. But Nina never wanted to get me.

One day I found Nina looking in pain, visible blood coming out of her nose and mouth. I meant to help wipe the blood and sweat on his face, but spontaneously he slapped me when I touched his face.

How shocked he made me, I did not expect at all Nina will manamparku. What a great istiqomahnya he in keeping the honor to not be touched men who are not muhrimnya. At that time I did not know about this issue in religion.

The incident was accidentally seen Nina mama then Nina was scolded all out until a slap landed on her cheeks. I saw Nina immediately took off her IV and ran to the bathroom.

Nina was locked himself in the bathroom. We forced our way through the bathroom door and we found Nina lying on the floor unconscious with too much blood coming out.

After conscious, I tried to talk and apologized to him for the incident, but Nina kept crying. I was also confused what I should do to calm him.

Without thinking I hugged him, but Nina pushed me hard and ran out of the room into the garden. When I approached Nina screaming to make people hit me because I thought I was interrupting Nina. That's why, Nina sleeps in the park all night and I can only see her from a distance.

After dawn before I saw Nina move to perform shubuh prayer in the mosque, I also pray. But after praying, Nina suddenly disappeared somewhere.

I looked it around the hospital. And a long time ago I saw a lot of people and it turns out Nina was unconscious lying with HP was next to him, it seems he was tired of talking to someone.

Nina's state was so critical that her breathing had to be helped with oxygen. The doctor said, Nina's wet lungs that may be caused all night sleeping in the park.

Nina was not aware. Feeling worried and confused I prayed by looking at his pale face.

Suddenly there is an SMS that goes to HP Nina, without realizing I even read and reply to the SMS. I also opened some SMS that goes to his cell phone and I am very touched by its contents, there are so many people who love it.

Among them is a man named Ukhti. Before I knew Ukhti was a call for a sister, I was jealous of it. I thought that Ukhti was Nina's girlfriend that was the reason he refused me.

After Nina woke up from her unconscious, I showed her the SMS sent by her sisters and she was very angry when I found out I had read and replied to the SMS from her sisters. He then finally forbids me to hold his HP let alone pick up or contact his sisters.

However, I still often text with my sisters to find out why Nina's attitude is so and so.

From here I got an answer that Nina did not want to touch let alone alone with me because I'm not mahramnya and Nina refused to dating and engaged to me because in Islam there is no such thing and it is a habit of non-Muslims.

I know also Nina looking for a brother who loves because God is not atss base of lust. Finally I know Nina's attitude during this solely he just wanted to run the Islamic Shari'ah correctly.

The day passed and I continued to study little by little about Islam from Nina and her sisters, especially in performing the five daily prayers just in time.

At that time I felt the calm and tranquility during the run and gave a feeling of longing for God to always worship Him.

My intention also appears to soon marry Nina to avoid slander, but Nina's condition worsened. He is always delirious in calling his sisters whom he loves for Allah ... ..

Seeing that, I took him to the city of Makassar, the village of my birth mother Nina to meet him with his sisters, Qadarulloh (at the will of Allah), I could not bring them together.

Nina's condition is getting worse and my illness also suddenly relapsed so I was thirsty in hospital. Nina's parents came and took her back to Makassar without my knowledge because at that time I was also hospitalized.

In the city of Makassar, Nina closely supervised by her father, because Nina papa less like the akhwat, let alone the veiled. The hospital and the house Nina occupied were kept secret. And Nina did not know where she was.

Because his condition is still weak, he can not do anything, even he sometimes anesthetized, especially when it will be moved from one place to the other yag so do not know where its existence, because his father did not want any akhwat who visited Nina.. Until HPnya also taken from Nina.

However, because Nina still has a cell phone that she hides from her father, so that several times Nina tried to run away to meet his sisters, Nina finally locked up in the room.

Hearing this, I immediately followed Nina to Makassar and I had time to talk to him from behind the door. Nina told me to meet an ustadz in a mosque in the city. From my meeting with the ustadz I was invited ta'lim a few days and I stay there.

Papa Nina thought Nina had thrown me out so she was scolded. Upon arriving home, I explained to Nina that she was innocent and told me that our marriage would be accelerated.

Thursday, January 24, 2017. We have a very simple marriage. The event was attended only by our parents and two partners papa. After the marriage ceremony I immediately took ustadz all dhuhur prayers.

How happy my heart is, I can finally feel the sincere love of Allah. Hopefully we can form a family sakinah mawaddah, wa rahmah and always in obedience to God ... .. That's my prayer then.

After returning from Ustadz, the happy feeling seemed to be spreading to Nina, who had just become my wife lying on the floor, from her nose and mouth back in blood. And his hands were seen scratches. We immediately took him to the hospital, on the way, Nina's condition looks very weak.

Hearing his voice calling me and saying that I must remain in the path of His approval while holding tightly my hand sincerely, my tears are unbearable to see the state of Nina who keeps dhikr while crying. He also always asks his sisters where?

Upon arrival at the hospital, I wondered why Nina's hands were scratched. I wrote an SMS to my sisters. Apparently, Nina's hands scratched when about to meet his sisters by getting out of the room. Since the bedroom door was locked, Nina wanted to get out through the window causing her hand to be scratched.

Nina did not realize until late at night, I was asleep and did not realize that Nina rose from her bed. He was eager to see his sisters and he did not realize that it was late.

He just said, "Want to meet my sister because there is no time again." Since Nina is still weak, she fainted after a moment while walking.

I was really surprised and confused to call a doctor but no one accompany Nina. Finally, I contacted one of his sisters to accompany him.

After me and the doctor arrived, Nina was not breathing and moving again. My defenses collapsed and my hopes of seeing Nina no more helpless. The doctor told me to get out. At that moment I thought Nina was gone, so I immediately wrote a message to Nina's sister to tell her that Nina was gone. But once the doctor came out, masha Allah!

Nina's heartbeat is back on track and she is in a coma. I am about to give news to my sister Nina but my HP battery is exhausted and suddenly my illness flare up again so I have to diinfus also.

At 11.30, my feelings say Nina calls me, so I get up out of bed and take the IV from my hand to Nina's room. I looked at Nina's face at the same time with the call to prayer for Friday prayers. While answering the call to prayer, I kept looking at Nina's face hoping she would open her eyes.

Once lafadz laa ilaaha illallah, the sound of a heart-detection machine goes off, indicating that Nina is gone. I yelled for a doctor, but my qadarulloh my dear wife has gone away forever from this world.

Nina was immediately bathed and worshiped after Friday prayers, then flown to his father's house in Malaysia. For the last time I opened the white cloth that covered Nina's face. Her face looks radiant ... ..

I must give up all this, I must be strong and accept His destiny. Remembering Nina's words, "Pray if God indeed calls me earlier with prayer," O Allah, give me patience and reward from the disaster that befall me and give me a better change. "

After the funeral, I immediately returned to Jakarta because my condition is less stable ... Astaghfirullah !!! I forgot to tell Nina's sisters. Probably because I was so absorbed in sadness that I spontaneously contacted them and told them that Nina was really dead.

I know for sure, they must be saddened by the departure of their beloved sister for God. Of the three sisters of Nina, there was an unbeliever and she seemed to hate me a lot. Somehow, why his attitude like that?

If only they knew, that before her departure, Nina always called their names, surely they got sadder. In the HP Nina seen a lot of SMS that shows how beautiful ukhuwah with his sisters. May Nina's sisters forgive her guilt and my personal faults.

"Dear greetings from Nina tu sister Rini, Sakinah, and Aisha and akhwat in Makassar. Continue to fight to keep da'wah ilallah. Shukran for your attention. "

***** Note Not long after this story was published in Elfata Young Muslim Media, Elfata's editor received an SMS from a ukhti, Nina's sister. The contents of the SMS is, "Afwan, may need to tell the reader Elfata about the story 'Finally My Love Done for God' where Kak Nina has died and now Kak Adhit was gone.

Approximately 2 weeks (Kak Adhit-red) hospitalized because of lung disease. Before had surgery, death had picked him up.

Ana said this because there are still many who send greetings, give support to Kak Adhit that I read in Elfata and some people I met on the street also always ask, Kak Adhit how? Ana is one of the ukhti in the story. Shukran. "

PERCIK MAYOR ..

Subhan Allah ! The story of Adhit and Nina above we can make a mirror to mirror. Reflect on Nina's determination to not wait for the love romance offer that is not covered by the beauty of shari'a.

Though Nina is a person in need of support, help, and the shoulders of the place where the crying. Nina principled, although in any difficult situation, the purity of the Shari'a should still be preserved and practiced.

Waves of trouble do not have to make us recede in consistent with this shari'a. It can even be difficult for the difficulties we experience to be the parameters of how far we have practiced this religious teachings.

On the other hand, one's ignorance of this Shari'a often makes the perpetrators act without any signs that have been declared religion.

However, it may be that the ignorance of the Shari'a becomes the starting point for a person to feel the beauty of religion and the sweetness of faith as happened to Adhit, the ikhwan who tells this story.

May Allah bless them, receive their souls together and make them both including His righteous servants whom His heaven promises. Aamiin.