Your post gave me strength crypto. Truth is that life is full of uncertainties and life is truly a struggle sometimes, you know this very well.
But even in our darkest hours, God's helping hand is always there to lift us up and lead us to a better place.
It is true that we all bear our crosses but each to the weight that he can bear. Your cross might be heavy but this is only because your strength is also great and the Lord knows that. Remember this brother!

I wish to you that this year your health makes a significant turn for the better.
Your struggles do not go unnoticed and you are a role model for many, myself included!
God Bless you brother!