if only I could

If only I could afford it, I would pass the day when I got to know you
If only I could, I would not let your shadow come to me
If only I could, could I hold my heart
In order not to beat fast for seeing you
And if only I could,
I stopped rain anyway
To your thirst for warmth
But..
I can only love you in silence,
Look at you from a distance
Be a house waiting for you to come
Even though you forgot your way home