Dear @gails-word-syrup I am sure you can, no matter how hard the life gets be proud of a lot of things you are doing at the moment and you have done in the past. Your struggle in life should give you straight to give the best (which I don't doubt that you are doing right now) to this little soul that needs your example how to walk to a better life. You are the mentor to this child, you are a window of the human behavior and emotional support to this lovely child, and I can only imagine how harsh it is to be emotional support while you yourself are struggling! The life journeys we pick alone, and the one your daughter choose is unfortunately her own struggle... We cannot expect the change from the ones that cannot accept it. And even though it is heavy to watch your child taking the wrong paths, you are not the one responsible for her decision. As Gibran said in his lovely poem our kids are not our own. We are just giving them their life, and by that we can only give them examples, but cannot walk their paths... You, with all this lovely words that I read are a strong mother and grandmother, a character that this young soul that you are raising at the moment can look up to, and I wish you a lot of strength to be happy that you can offer him/her sanctuary and love. Because, all we need is love!!! I am sharing some of mine with you! Hugs!