What is Tisha B'Av for me?

I think that the 9th of Av symbolizes the deepest pain anyone has in the world.
The pain of our self-destruction, the despair of trying to fulfill those dreams that made us smile, the lack of connection to those beautiful and good places in our souls, our self-essence.
Sometimes I sit quietly in myself, thinking of the same dreams I would like to illuminate in the world. In my imagination, there is a well-built (grandly built) plan in which I live what I really wanted to contribute to the world, living the same thing for which I came into the world.
I think it is to build my own Holy Temple, the same holy place full of light that I feel at home.
And here comes my private Tisha B'Av, and of every person, what does that mean? So I will explain that I tell the people around me about that magnificent and beautiful temple, that dream the same goal that I wanted so much to realize.
They immediately explain to me that it is nice to dream but should be realistic, and that I stop dreaming that it will not happen, they even angry at me that I act like a little boy
they try to take that fancy fancy and put it in small settings, so it seems to them so illogical, In other words, "they destroy the Temple."
They distance the person from the true and deep good that he desires and needs, because they see the world differently.
The destruction of the house is to hear all those people who weaken you and believe them, and the final break is that even a person himself stops believing that one day the dream will come true, a person who does not believe in himself is in the destruction of the house.
For this, a person must mourn on Tisha B'Av, for he has stopped believing in himself, for having stopped believing in good, for having stopped dreaming.