Challenges I Faced In Life Growing Up And As an adult(27-1-2026).
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Hello steemian, my name is Purity Okon but my user name is @ purityy. Things were just running through my mind and I storm on some of the challenges have faced while growing up as a child and as an adult. First, while growing up I didn't have or experience emotional support from my guardian or any one around, but I still struggle to be better person, I was faced with difficult challenges that at times I will want to take my life or quit everything since nothing was working for me, I could not control my emotions, I let things get to me easily and I cry alot.
As a child I trust people alot that I was always hurt by every little word said to me, at times they will tell me it a joke but to me it was not, so I withdraw from my peers, since my childhood, my mom thought me not to depend on people for help, she believes I must do it by my self so that I will be used to it, so I start been independent from a tender age, I saw everyone as there have nothing to offer me so I did not have respect for anyone, I felt I can do everything by my self without anyone's assistance because that is how I viewed the world, that was a great challenge to me, because I always fail as a child trying to do what is not your age.
Another phase of challenge was in my teenage age, oh my God! I had a worst experience, I decide to start mingling with people since I can't do somethings by myself, and I thought maybe having friends around I can share my problems with will help me do things right, but I was and I made the wrong choice of friends, friends who influenced me negatively, friends who made me believes for me to be successful I have to be tough, tough in the Sense that I have to be fighting for what is mine, and I imitate and it turns me to a trouble maker, I became violence to everyone that seems they want to interfere in my matter or correct me when am wrong.
I will insult my elders, speak to people anyhow because I thought it was the right thing to do, I used that mentality and grow up, which really affect me psychologically till now, am always angry, everything someone say to be will always pissed me off. That is why I can't build a good relationship with people, If someone wants to correct and the person is not kind enough with their words, it do hurt me, because of my character I had from childhood till now, and I thought isolating my self from people is the best thing so I won't fight with anyone or have issues with anyone, have lost many intimate relationship.
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Because of my anger, have let alot of good people walk out of my life, even till this moment am having serious issues with my man, though some of the fault is from him, but I have mine too, one thing I don't like is people trying to see me as a fool because am calm, so anytime someone talks to me shouting or in a way I don't like I will push you aside, no matter who you are which is not supposed to be so, I have difficulty expressing myself to someone if they hurt me, I thought the best thing is to be silent and distance myself. Story of my life, and challenges am facing.