Chaos Magick - the dreams that followed

It is a mistake to consider any belief more liberated than another. It is the possibility of change which is important. Every new form of liberation is destined to eventually become another form of enslavement for most of its adherents.

Hey there! So if you didn't already, check out my previous post where I explained why Chaos Magick was a waste of time. What I forgot about, however, was that it seems that every time I read intently on the subject, I wake up the next morning with a little vertigo, and spend the day recalling the vivid, bizarre dreams the night before. There's no scientific way to prove this, and I don't exactly believe in this stuff anyway. But I know it keeps happening, and it remains a very weird, unusually lucid experience for me when it happens. So after a short hiatus from Steemit to recollect myself, I thought I'd share with you all what dreams that followed when I posted about the practice. Bear with me here, and stay tuned for my interpretation that follows!

The dream began in some kind of mansion. It was around 9:00 PM, and I was with a close friend of mine. We were both very tired, and proceeded to take to the floor and couch to attempt to get some rest. Shortly after I fell asleep (yes, in the dream itself) I awoke, strangely enough on the floor, of an office of what I believed to be a FedEx distribution center.

There was a strange sense of vertigo as I rose to sit up and look around... I was alarmingly TOO aware of everything, and in control almost completely of the dream - It's as if I was there in the real world. I even shook my hands in front of my face with complete conscious volition, to assure myself I was dreaming. Shortly after, an employee strolled in and handed me a thermal receipt printer. "Important package" the man said, before walking away. I already felt pretty uneasy about it. I looked down and noticed it was oddly lighter than normal, as if the internals were removed. Curious, I opened the hood of the machine...

Inside the machine was my beloved pet dog, a four year old Peekapoo for whom I've left behind with my family when I moved away. Horrified, I managed to pull him out, only to experience a very cold, lifeless animal. The best way I can explain how he felt was that rigor mortise has set in. The receipt printer vanished, and I was left holding him in the office, screaming, begging for his "life force" to come back, whaling at how badly I wanted my dog back. After a short, horrified, tear-filled moment, the dog began to... shake. Twitch. Vibrate. He began to move again, but not at all in a natural way. His movements were akin to stop motion monster animations from 70s/80s horror movies. His head rolled back at me, and gave me a toothy snarl. At that moment, I "woke up" back into the mansion.

I was on the couch. I looked over at my friend, who was mysteriously already awake, on the floor. I told him, "We need to get out of here." In the next instance, we were standing on a highway bridge. My friend was talking to the police. My hands were raised, glowing a deep pinkish purple. Again, I was completely aware and in control of myself. I remember flicking my wrists, throwing these orbs of "energy" or something, thinking "HOLY SHIT I HAVE MAGICAL POWERS!" as they simply floated away.

And then I woke, back to the real world, to my girlfriend telling me it's time to go - and it really was, because I had to pick someone up from work and I was running late...

So, wow. Okay, that was incredibly weird. And pretty upsetting too! For the reference: I moved away a few years ago; my dog is alive and safe with my family. I loved that dog so, so very much. He wasn't your typical small dog - you could wrestle with him, throw balls and sticks for him, and he's had his fair share of death-defying encounters. Thank goodness we had an EMT in the family, right? Anyway, now it's time for an interpretation. The way I do this is to google elements of the dream, find their meaning, and once I've cleared each element, I'll attempt to put any pieces together to formulate an overall meaning. My readers are more than welcome to give their interpretations as well! So, here we go:

Being somewhere with my friend: "signifies aspects of your personality that you have rejected, but are ready to incorporate and acknowledge."

Being in a mansion: "increased exposure to more opportunity in life."

Going to sleep: "ignorant of the conditions and circumstances around you."

Being given something (I don't know if the receipt printer was a gift or not): "gifts may symbolize your talents, creativity, or something special about you"

(At the time of writing, I don't feel good about this. I feel numb, tingly, a little lightheaded, and very uneasy)

Seeing your dog in a state of death: "an indication of a loss of something you hold dear or close to you."

Waking up in a dream: "symbolizes freedom or escape."

Being on a highway bridge: "Dreaming of a road indicates the momentum and direction that your life is taking right now."

Talking to the police: "The police may represent your self-consciousness, and also the feeling of being restrained in waking life"

Having magic powers: "indicative of the fact that you have the power to get yourself out of your own situation."

Now the orb thing... That's a weird one. I won't delve too much into it, but check this out on reddit.

Now that I've cleared the elements, let's see if I can put this together.

There's an aspect of my personality that I've rejected but am ready to incorporate into myself and acknowledge, but I need more exposure in life before I can take that on. Clearly this is an issue, because I'm pretty ignorant of these... aspects. These aspects are... pretty special somehow, and it seems like I once had it, but have lost it (or I'm in the process of losing it?). It relates to the spiritual side of things, because I was literally begging for it to come back. And... it did. Or will. But not in a way I'm expecting at all - definitely more "monstrous" somehow. But clearly I've freed myself from it, or can free myself from it, and I'll face a very hard decision concerning this. And it definitely seems as though it's restraining for me - On what though? Whatever it is, I have the power to get myself out of this situation.

and then, those orbs... Spiritual thingies of some kind? I don't know, nor do I care. This dream was bizarre and upsetting. Has it changed my views on anything? No. None of this is relevant to my waking life in any way. But it's pretty fun to interpret it and see how I can APPLY it to my waking life, if I can at all.

As always, thanks for reading! If you'd like to share your thoughts, by all means comment below!