7 week scan

A few weeks ago we had our first appointment with our doctor.

After a few questions and a check up with me complaining about constant stomach pains he suggested we get our first scan to see if everything is alright with the baby.

I thought it was stress related (remember last year, all my stomach problems?), he feared it could be growing outside the uterus, we decided to go see for ourselves just to be sure.

It was an amazing thing to see and such a relief to know it's growing in the right spot with it's little heart beating.

❤

Still having stomach pains and I'm pretty sure it's stress related.

There's so much going on over here and it's been one thing after another ever since I found out I was pregnant.

Waited 18 years for this, thinking maybe this time around things will work out, but it's been pretty much on par with how my life's gone so far.

Trauma after trauma with a few sprinkles of happiness mixed in and a lot of fight and some determination from my part, cos really after everything, I'm really tired.

In light of everything, I have a new zero tolerance for people who just want to be difficult and hateful, and I don't give a shit if you're blood, distant relo, a stranger or someone who claimed to be my friend. If you're going to be an asshole I will not put up with you, and I really won't care about who you are or rather who you think you are to me.

9 weeks ago, before I was sharing a body, I could take selfish, self righteous, self entitled, nit picking, just bored and want to argue people, no problem.

But now that I'm preggo, nothing is more important than bub.

The good thing about it all is I'm narrowing down who my real people are and yes, there's still quite a few left, and I'm very blessed to have these amazing people in my life.

Special mention and credit to my Husband who's been my rock, my everything. Who has stayed up many nights comforting me while I cried when he has to be at a job at some ungodly hour in the morning.

They're the ones who, when shit hits the fan, has an umbrella out and ready, winking at me saying "We got you."

I've realised, I don't need everyone. I just need the right ones.