Blog 02-May-2018 : Sexual Frustration

Hi anyone reading, good day to you.

I feel ashamed to admit this but I kinda want to get this out my chest, I think I'm having some kind of sexual frustration. I, like other guys are of course always thinking and wanting to have sex, it's normal for a guy, however it's always just a passing thought and masturbation always solves the problem. To be honest, I am kind of a sex after marriage guy because I understand that I can't afford to have children in my young age that might hinder my career and shame on my marriage ceremony, my ex girlfriend once even during our intimate time where we kiss and masturbate each other asked if I wanted to put my dick inside her pussy and I just said no, I know of the use of condom but I can't risk even 1% of failure, moreover our relationship during that time wasn't the healthiest and I was afraid that even if the sex is safe, if we break up she can have sex with other man and get pregnant and claim that it's mine. I have also never had sex with my current girlfriend and we do have intimate time together, but these few months I've been feeling different, I don't know why but I want to have sex my girlfriend.

I don't know if it's my age or whatever reason I think that I want to have sex already, but I have not talked about it with my girlfriend yet because she is also a sex after marriage girl. However I have been feeling very frustrated due to not being able to have sex these few months and it's affecting me in a small way, I get a bit more emotional and short tempered, masturbation from porn and my girlfriend also feels less satisfying. I am very frustrated of what I should do, maybe I should talk it out with my girlfriend, but she is most likely to decline which I'm sure will make me feel worse. The desire for sex is building up and making me very uncomfortable to the point that I thought of breaking up with my girlfriend for this sole reason, to find new girlfriend that is open to sex, but of course it's just a passing thought. I am currently very frustrated and don't know what I should do. I would not want to go for prostitute as I fear STD, none of my female friends are open minded on sex, I never went to pub or club too to get lucky on a one night stand. I really don't know what to do.