Hey @futuremind . This is Caleb. I play on lucksacks from time to time with you. Thanks for sharing. I have not experienced the type of pain and the tough childhood that you have. I am very impressed with how you had been able to forgive your father and give him another chance. You are a stronger man than I. I would have probably harboured bitterness in my heart and stayed addicted to drugs and alcohol.
My experiences are totally different than yours. I had an amazing upbringing. But all consuming clinical depression took hold of my life at the age of 13. I went undiagnosed until the age of 28. I felt like sleeping all day in those 15 years. My life feels like it was robbed of my youth and of it's plans for the future. I am 34 now, with a baby daughter on the way set to make her debut in September. My depression and crippling debt is at times overwhelming. I often want to turn to drinking too. Yesterday I had our car repossessed. Financially things have hit rock bottom. But I feel there is hope for both you and me. We are going to do our best to dig ourselves out of the mess we are in and we will succeed. My thoughts and prayers are with you man,
Caleb
Hey Caleb,
I can identify with your depression. By the sounds of it, you have it pretty severe. I too know what it's like having a car repossessed, it's quite daunting. Despite this hardship you are presented with, I think you are going to be alright, and I see positivity for your future. Some key things you said here that stand out to me.
You are going to be fine man. Don't give in to drinking and drugging as a means of escape. Face your problems head on, and rest when you can.
You are going to be a Parent soon! This is great news! I will pray that your daughter comes in great health, and that your problems dissolve with your hard work and dedication.
I can't promise you success if you go heads up on the poker table with me though....That's an entirely different story..
Thanks for stopping by and sharing your perspective with me. I wish you the best my friend. Hang in there during these tough times. We're going to be alright.