The Difference in Two Worlds
Going to school this morning made me realise how much i am going to miss the place where i am not silently judged, criticized or made jest of because of the opportunities that are easily accessible to others but don't come my way. If i could get a hold on certain deals to be financially stable,no maybe i would fully venture into it at this point of my life but at what expense or expectations? Right now, i dont want the pressure to overwhelm me. Yes, the pressure is there but it can be particularly draining when you enter a new phase of life.
You are constantly torn between dedication and doing what you truly want. Most times, you have to really think about your family and how they will feel about certain choices. At home, i am completely the way that i am. *With or without my filters, with or without my makeup on and there is so much love available for everyone at home
At school, i am constantly reminded of my goals and what i want for my life. I find myself questioning my life choices and asking myself about venturing into a particular way of life. But my mind often feel conflicted because of my surroundings and the people around me. They are affluent, flashy and full of life.It is like you can smell money before you actually see money and trust me, it can get to me sometimes.
Beneath everything, there is envy, criticism and hatred everywhere. People have measured your worth before you actually talk and you can be easily discarded. You would be surprised that someone you laugh and talk with secretly dislike you. That is the reality of life that you begin to see here and yes, welcome to my daily dose of stories
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It sounds as if you are lucky, since most are criticized at home. IlThey feel the pressure at home to study, to be someone whatever that may mean. Personally I never felt that school was stressful, lonely at times yes, boring and a waste of time yes. The stressful place was home. As I left school I didn't have to feeling my life would change that much. Most glad I felt as I had my own home.
If your family is as loving as you say they should respect your choice, know what you want and say that you are the future and there's no need to realise their dreams.