My feeling of playing the game today was very good.

The feeling of playing today was really a little different and when I picked up the game again after three or four days, a strange fear and hope were working together in my mind because the previous days were not very good and despite repeated attempts, I could not get the points properly. I made mistakes and felt upset and angry with myself. And yet, when I sat down to play today, I decided in my mind that no matter what the result was, I would not lose patience. The beginning of the game was not very easy and in the first few moments, the memories of previous failures kept coming to mind and I felt like I would mess everything up again like before and my hands were shaking a little. My mind was not completely steady and yet I convinced myself that this game is not just about points, it is also a test of controlling my mind and I gradually started to increase my attention and tried to understand every move.

And in the middle of the game, I realized that I was able to control it a little bit today and the points were slowly increasing and I wasn't losing everything by making a sudden mistake like before and although it wasn't perfect, there was a peace working inside and it felt like after playing badly these past few days, I was at least winning the fight with myself today and this feeling was the biggest achievement of the day and when the score finally stopped at 1588 and then mixed feelings were working inside my mind and on one hand I know that this is not my best score and it is possible to do better but on the other hand it is much better than the recent bad times and this score gave me new courage and I felt that I can still do it just need regular effort and patience.

And today's game reminded me of an important thing again and not all days are the same and some days will be very good and some days will be very bad but the bad days actually show the value of the good days and if you can stick with it even in those bad times then one day the results will come and today's fairly good point is a small proof of that and when I hung up the phone after finishing the game my mind felt lighter than before and today I didn't just play a game but I won a little against my depression and in the future I might have a bad score again and I will be sad but I will remember this feeling today because today I realized that I didn't give up and I was able to do a little better today and something better will definitely come like this one day.

Thank you all for reading my post.

@baizid123