My feeling of playing today.

Today, when I sat down to play, my mind felt a little different and the experiences of the past few days were going through my head. Sometimes it was good and sometimes it wasn't what I wanted. But today I had a different feeling and I felt like I would at least try to give my best today and no matter what the result was, I started the game with that thought. The beginning was not very easy. It took a while to get everything right. The speed of the ball, the movement of my hands and the focus of my eyes. Sometimes I felt like I would have to stop at a low point like before, but I didn't lose heart and kept telling myself,Keep going, it will get better gradually and I was trying to get my attention back into the game by saying these little things to myself.

And at one point everything started to come together and a beautiful coordination was created between the hand and the eye and when the ball was hit in the right place there was an inner joy and with each successful move it seemed that I was really doing better little by little and I was getting new strength as I saw the score increase and I was able to avoid many of the mistakes that I used to make before and thinking about this I was feeling pretty good about myself. When the game was finally over and the score appeared in front of my eyes it was a strange feeling and it may not be a very big score but this number was the result of all my hard work, patience and effort and so this score felt very valuable to me and it felt like I had conquered myself a little today and had gone a lot further today compared to yesterday's poor performance and this feeling was the biggest achievement.

And this game reminded me again that big results are not always the main thing and the main thing is to keep trying and make yourself a little better than the day before and even though today could have been more points I am still satisfied with what happened because I know that today I did not give up and tried to give my best in every moment and this experience gives me more inspiration for the next day and tomorrow I will play again with new enthusiasm and try to do better and maybe one day my desired goal will be fulfilled and today's small success is an important step on the way to that big dream.