So busy
Busy doing what exactly? Racing against time to check off items on a never ending list of goals on your memo? If so, the results of this systematic ordering of your activities are probably as much the result of the world's growing disdain for laziness and boredom, as a testament to your singular path towards becoming a world class expert on goal list making. Do you understand me? You're getting good at making lists. I hope that's your objective otherwise you're cooked for sure.
We've become convinced that doing too much rather than doing too little means doing something, anything, worth doing. Whether or not your activities bear fruit of any kind to the world besides the satisfaction of completing a task is too many to ask you to consider isn't? You're wasting time with a beautiful list that actually doing one thing right from that list in the real world.
Doing too much at the same time means you're distracted from doing anything of significance unless of course you're able to create a system where you delegate all that to experts which would mean individually they're focused on one thing and doing the one thing so well.
The activity based rewards you chase are a lot and very different from each other. You might think you're productive but that technique is counter intuitive and inevitably distracting you from becoming a master of one thing.
You have lots of industry, dozens of goal list items, but not a thing of worth to show for it. You've become a master at goal list making. Do yourself a favor and master something you're interested in rather than pursuing too many things.
Jack of all trades master of none
I agree, being a generalist helps you adapt and solve different problems quickly, even if you aren't the top expert in just one thing but experts are who we call for the most complex tasks.
I agree with being a specialist in something, but that is a process of course. How can I just start to learn the ins and outs of certain things and stick to it if I don't feel so inclined? Shouldn't I try many things to bring my own flavor to the thing I will eventually be able to learn?