Drugs - The way out from society

A warmthly hello to everyone,

as a big fan of drugs i used to read many books about it, to be more preciese autobiographies from people that went that way. Most known book (at least in the german speaking area) is probably Zoo Station from Christiane F.

A little girl who went (i guess it was with 14 years) partying in the so called Sound meeting there her friends and fell into the world of heroin - even if she didn't wanted it. But her somehow boyfriend started to use it, they broke up, she saw him on a concert of David Bowie with another girl and that was too much for her, so she snorted it and got hooked. The time of money getting (mostly from prostitution) started to get her next fix. Everything as underaged. She also tried some withdrawal programs but gets everytime back to her old habits...

Now why did i choose this for the contest?
Because the world of the drugs aka the underground is other than the everyday world. When you're a junkie you can say you live outside of society. Not getting up in the morning, preparing for work, etc. But getting up in the morning, getting your first shot of the day (if you're lucky - if not you get withdrawal symptoms aka turkey), chilling/sleeping a while, then get on the street, prostitution or stealing - either way you have to get money for your next fix, buy some h and doing it. Your life is on the street, not in a beautiful home where you get to shower and eating everyday.

Apart from Zoo Station i also read other likely books:

• Shore, Stein, Papier (Heroin, Stone -> Cocaine, Paper -> Money)
• Ich ging durch die Hölle (My way through hell) it's the story from a southtyrolean who did heroin

And also some other books, even the "now"-story of Christiane F. (Mein zweites Leben -> My second life).

Would i be able to live in such a way?
On the one hand i used drugs in my past - even heroin, but i didn't get addicted to it (did it a few times, tried to let pass some time in between, etc. Still i wouldn't recommend it!). But in that period i lived at home, my father provided food and money, so i didn't had the bad part - just the highs. If he would have thrown me out from home and i would've to live on the street, i wouldn't make it, i guess. I need a shower, i need a warm, comfy bed at night, etc. I can't imagine myself on the streets. Getting money from robbing someone, which i guess i'm bad at and i also don't want to do it. The other way would be prostitution which i'm also not able to do it. So yeah, i guess it's nothing for me. I'm happy i got out of it! Smoking a joint every now and then is ok. But since last month i try to not buy something because it's much stress for me. Even if i just have to buy once a year 5g of weed and would be ok for the whole year. But then i smoke sometimes when i shouldn't. Also the smoking per se isn't as joynable as it used to be now in the condominium i live in. So it's more stress for me than chilling. So i decided to let it be and when there is an opportunity to smoke with someone, i'll make some hits, if i want to, and good is.

Have a great day and keep clean ;)

Sincerely,
@dissi