Between Frustration and Habit – My Decision to Leave DrugWars on Steem

Sometimes frustration slowly replaces motivation, and one day you realize it is time to stop.

Today I made a decision.

I am ending my activity with DrugWars on Steem.

This is not something I decided lightly. I have been thinking about it for a while. But sometimes there is a moment when frustration becomes stronger than motivation. And today was that moment.

Yesterday I was doing my usual game tasks. Everything was already running slowly. That is something I have seen many times before, so I tried to ignore it. Then the moment came: I started a job, and it immediately finished by itself and turned grey. It was the last job out of fifteen.

Today in the morning I tried again.
I started the first job. Everything was slow again, but it worked. Then I started the second job. The same thing happened again. The job finished immediately by itself, and the start button turned green again.

I know this problem. It happens quite often when the page does not update correctly. Normally I just refresh the page manually and everything works again.

But this time nothing changed.

The button stayed green.
I waited. Sometimes it needs a few minutes. Normally there are about six minutes available. But nothing happened.

Once again, resources that I could not collect.

This was the moment when I realized that my patience had reached its end.

There is another point as well.

One player and I used to fight regularly for first and second place. We changed positions many times. It was a real competition, and that competition was part of the motivation.

But for several weeks now there has been no activity from him.

At some point I even thought about attacking him to use his resources. Other players probably had the same idea. But that is not the real issue.

What I really miss is the competition.

He was part of the motivation to keep playing. I always hoped he would return. Maybe he still will. If that happens, he is welcome to farm my bases now.

Maybe I will even delete the account completely. I already did that once a few years ago with another account. Later I started again because I realized something was missing.

When someone like me works mostly on the computer, small distractions can become part of the daily routine. Even with very fast computers, there are always small waiting times. DrugWars was something I could do during those moments.

But today I feel mostly frustration.

And when something begins to annoy me more than it brings enjoyment, I prefer to stop.

Life without unnecessary frustration is simply better.

There are many other things I would rather spend my time on.

Spring is coming.
I enjoy working in my garden.
I like going for walks.
And I enjoy traveling with my van.

^{Spring outside always reminds me that there are better things to do than waiting for a frozen game interface.}

So it is time to step away from this small dependency and move toward other activities.

Maybe I will miss it for a while. That is normal. Habits take time to disappear. But that feeling will pass.

I will still play DrugWars, but only on Telegram.

It has definitely been fun over the years. And as the saying goes: it is better to stop while you are still in a good position.

And yes, I am leaving from position number one.

I will also close this Steem account. Two other accounts that I mainly use for administrative purposes will follow.

The delegations will be removed, and the Steem will be sold.

To the few players who are still here, I wish you all the best. I hope you can continue to enjoy the game.

Unfortunately, I have lost that enjoyment.

Thank you for your attention.

For me, the time has come to close this chapter.