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Thank you! It was a lovely surprise to read that post today. A lot of good vibes going around in our corner of Steemit! Gosh, I need to know more! Tell me more! :)

Yes so many good vibes! Haha! Well
I had a lot of dreams last night and this one is kind of vague. What I remember was your “room”/House was in a city (surrounded by a mote, I think) and the thought was, that it would be hard to be healthy while living in a city. The situation you were in made it hard to be healthy, that was the main gist. Like I said, not too many details! Some strong dreaming lately. Curious about an update too on your freaking, but also 💯 no pressure!! 💜

eep! Sorry for not replying to you on this. The fact you had replied got lost somewhere. :(

The situation you were in made it hard to be healthy.

You are absolutely correct on that one.

I have this specific issue that keeps coming back and unfortunately it seems to be the root of most of the things that are hanging on and holding me back. I once read that until you resolve important things these people or "gifts" will keep coming into your life to remind you that you have a task to accomplish.

I just reflected back and I've been grappling with it for ... 26 years. I am really, really ready to leap forward with this but the people involved are so closed off to growth, evolution and seeking "more" that they make it impossible. They don't hear me. They don't see me. They just take my energy and leave me depleted.

basically .. I am still "working on it". I thought I'd had some great awakening but really it's just more painful than ever. The more I see, the harder it gets to tolerate no forward movement ..while remaining dutiful and kind.

omg, not sure what I meant by freaking! lol i think i meant dreaming....! i need to proof read! one never knows how dreams we have interact with anything in the "waking world". i hate not feeling seen or heard... i find that is one of the most toxic and discouraging situations. i hear and see you as do so many on steemit! for me, being seen, even by a small group, helps me to realize how unhealthy and even toxic those situations can be and develop that core of being seen and loved... i have some people in my life like this too, and i'm not sure of your situation (and also am not pressing), but i find i must be like a duck in water not really letting them touch me, limit time with them or cut them off altogether!! wishing you strength, self love and joy, walkerland <3

Freaking was exactly what I was doing. (haha) Last week was brutal. thanks for your kindness. It means a lot.