Talking getting hard sometimes
You know what, I actually believed for a while that I sound stupid when I speak.
It doesn't mean I'm saying stupid stuff no, that's not even the context. I meant in not perfect with language expression and behavior when I'm talking to someone, especially strangers.
Have you ever noticed how one person overthinks every single word, while another person's words just evaporate into thin air?
I laugh at unfunny things just to fill an empty space and sometimes I cut off a conversation just to say yeah at the completely wrong moment, and to be honest I may not fully understand what the person is even saying.
I was really confident that I was the only one in my life that experience this first.
And you might be in a situation where you probably think that you are the only socially awkward person on the planet and how you are just unable to hold a proper conversation.
I wanted to tell you that tou and the person opposite you in that conversation probably feel the exact same way, to be frank. Reality is fixing communication problems and awkwardness isn't all that easy so that make the mistake if thinking just because the other person responds so confidently z they're ok with how they express themselves at all times. There's something they wish to do better just like you do.
You know you need to say something, but you can't, and you sit there in silence for god knows how long, while the person you are supposed to address is just looking at you waiting and nothing you know can make you talk. I have this when I'm talking to the person I really like. Since the connection just began there's not much to talk about, except repeating the same thing. So I can sense we're both constantly looking for what's next to say. It gets easier at some point though but it usually happens. It's happening less these days because there's a build up of moments between us.
So if we all have communication problems to some extent, why do we all think that we are the only people in the world having communication problems? We are all struggling, myths are real and the truth is everyone has some flaw.
We are all just people so don't let that flaw take your confidence away.
Sometimes I feel that we were not created to be conversive, but rather we evolved into one. Like the modern office culture demands you be in the limelight, be helpful, or charm your way through it.
Yes that is something I agree with