The rules of the world seem very strange to me. No matter what family, society or state says, they want to keep everyone bound by their own rules. But the educated society of today may forget that every person has a desire to make their own decisions, express their own opinions, and live independently. Anyway, I was expressing my suppressed emotions to you without saying anything. Actually, for more than the last 2/3 months, some such problems have taken root in my life. As a result, I cannot focus on anything. Those of you who used to read my writing regularly know that I got a chance at Duet University last year, and since then, my family's rules have been pressing on me even more. It seems like I have no mind or freedom. For various reasons, I have not even posted for the last few months. The root of all this is my decision to make.

For the past many days, I have been feeling that I should get married. But I could not explain this to my family in any way. They talked about career first, then marriage. But they are not willing to understand that I may have any problem, due to which I want to get married. After doing a lot of things, I was able to convince my uncle and aunt, but I could not convince my parents. I have been in a big trouble about this for the last few months. First of all, they had questions for me, will you get married now, who will pay for your expenses, if you get married, your studies will be ruined, you will not be able to do anything in life. I got into various kinds of troubles and many more. But many of you know that I have been paying for my own studies for a long time and also give something to my family. At that time, they never said that my studies will be ruined. But when I wanted to get married to save myself from all bad deeds and temptations, then they had various kinds of problems.

Not only my family, my relatives also started talking behind my back, why do I want to get married now? Am I stuck in some kind of love? But to be honest, I decided to stay away from the forbidden thing called love. Although I understand that getting married increases my responsibility to some extent. But marriage actually comes from God and sustenance is also given by Him, so why do we have so much tension about sustenance? I had a few people closest to me. Among them was a teacher from my high school. Whom I have known for the past 13 years. I used to discuss all my decisions with him. But when I discussed and decided about marriage with him, he did not agree. He also said the same thing, you should first decide on your career and then get married. Educated societies do not understand anything except your career. But I also understand that if you are not established, there will be many obstacles in life. Still, sometimes some decisions have to be taken before success to protect yourself.

After many obstacles and hurdles, my uncle and younger uncle took the responsibility of getting me married. And just saying I will get married is not enough. It is difficult to find a person who will give a girl to an unemployed boy and a girl with the mentality to marry an unemployed man. From then on, I started searching a little. I was busy with my studies, which my uncle and uncle did. Although my father agreed with his mouth, he did not agree with his heart. But I told everyone that just as now no one needs to pay my expenses, no one will need to pay my expenses after marriage. I will raise my own expenses myself. In fact, the problem of lower middle class families is that freedom and desires are imprisoned by money and success.

Anyway, by the infinite mercy of Allah Almighty, I have overcome all the adverse circumstances and have taken the biggest decision of my life. Last month, the marriage work was completed, Alhamdulillah. I do not know whether this decision will bring success or hardship in life. But I am optimistic, something good will happen in my life. Insha Allah, I will share the moments of marriage with you gradually. Everyone will pray for me. Stay well, stay healthy. I will try to share my writings with you again as before.