Yes it is better some months/years and worse others...A lot of people tell me, even strangers tell me, "you're very intelligent" women tell me "you're funny"....I believe that latter. I do believe just a tid bit I do have some intelligence but find it hard to believe I'm anymore intelligent than the next person. As far as hating myself, I believe it's partly true because sometimes with the clinical depression it's very difficult to think well of oneself.

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