This was really powerful to read. I am sorry that you struggle with depression so much. I know how it goes. I was going to post a poem about it today but I chickened out. I admire that you're able to write about it so honestly. Welcome to the community.
You just made my day. Thanks for replying and telling me.
You really should post your poem. It can be cathartic.
I'd like to read it.
I didn't post the poem but I posted something else about mental illness/ depression, if you want to read it here. Hope you're feeling well.
Okay, I will let you know if/ when I post it. Take care of yourself <3