Don't feel sad for me after reading my story, instead just smile and help as you can!

Would you read my story to discover how i began on steemit?

I tried different jobs especially online jobs like : YouTube, ad-sense, eCommerce, online marketing, and many many more, but none worked. I felt like i lost, lost in the middle of the forest, where there is no coming back or going further, i was stuck in between. I tried to give up, I thought i am worthless, person without any value. But no, one of my friend said me something, something miracle, like a light appeared near me. The healing light, the light of conscious soul. And that made me happy. So, i'll like to thank @bikeshdhakal for recommending me to use steemit. Though as a newbie, Though as a newbie, I hope i do my great in upcoming days and thanks for those who are watching this. I felt bit relax sharing my difficulties, also i am gonna mention about myself, my talents and who i am, below.

So,

Who am i? What are my talents? What can i do?

So, lets begin. Well my name is Prabachan Bastola (Facebook - @prabachann), i'm from small country Nepal. With lots of beauties. It's a small and beautiful country. I am currently studying Computer Engineering, and have knowledge of most programming knowledge like C, C++, Python, Java, and many others. My aim is to be a successful CEH(Certified Ethical Hacker) to help in security system and also software development. But, before 3/4 years, my life took turning point. I became a person with lots of knowledge weather inside or outside of universe, i nowadays spend my whole time on Laptops and Spiritual books. They don't just give you knowledge, they'll open your mind forever. I can be called with many names Introspective, Schizophrenic, Crazy, Explorer, Intellectual, Genius. I can't actually call genius myself LOL. But explorer is suitable title for me. Philosopher, motivational speaker and many more. I can make many people inspired with my thought. And lead them to find their meaning, purpose of life. I don't divide people by people place, religion. I just imagine there is no heaven, no hell, no religion, And we all are living under same roof called PEACE - As John Lenon said. He was my hero. I think it's just enough. Though I've got many knowledge i am a bit depressed, disappoint, sad with my own life because i can't do anything in my life to success. I think this can help me long, and PRAY FOR ME.

If you guys found anything sad for me please help me as what as you can, i'd be very happy.
Thanks! :)