Thank you so much for your comment, i have found so many encouraging people on here and that so many have had a similar experience. It is very easy to feel isolated and it might be part of the reason why i started doing these blogs. Maybe it needs to be communicated before i can put it to rest either way its good to meet people like yourself and i have followed and upvoted your comment. Hopefully many more chats to come, and i will give your posts a look over too. thanks