The major reason I want to get married is to have kids. This comes from the overpowering belief and stubbornness to prove to myself, my surrounding and of course my dad that life doesn't have to be so shitty as/for kids.

I already practice this on my younger brother.

Take for instance, I was told as a child that pleasure can not be combined with study/school. When my brother visited me a while ago, I gave him the freedom to play video games every night. He also finished 3 seasons of Legends of Tommorow and 10 seasons of The Big Bang Theory all in the space of 6 weeks. Yet he aced his science papers in ways he had never done before. All 90+.

How?

Because although he played everyday, I made sure he completed one chapter of a math text before he did any other thing, everyday. As long as he did that, he was free and the faster he did, the more time he had for other things.

I just want to see kids blossom, to live, to laugh and to love and to experience everything I never got the chance to experience as a kid.