RE: PAY Attention!
No, it's no coincidence. It's one of the first things I noticed here and I've been pondering that ever since. So many of us seem to be lacking something essential. I don't mean to invoke too much assumption with that word, "lack", and it's probably not the best word to use. But we're seeking. That's so apparent. And I think it has to do with the political climate and how harsh things have gotten. I think maybe we do hole up and we get to feeling alone, and then in a place like this we suddenly realize we're not alone at all in how we think and feel. We crave and thrive off that interaction. I could say some really sappy sounding words to describe how wonderful and good that can be, but my words would probably diminish the experience I'm trying to describe. I think all humans are creative. I think it's beaten out of us, and so we don't think we are. We don't realize it. But as soon as we engage and start sparking that energy off of one another it just bursts out of us. That's what I think we're really craving. I know it's something that I miss when I have no outlet for it.
I used to think I was so alone haha, at least haven't met many people in my town
I think you're right, but at least we realize it. Plus now we can show people how we lost it, and how to get it back
I get depressed and it affects all areas of my life. I've found singing in the car, writing, yoga, running, and a few others are my go to outlets, I'm sure I'll branch out as I go, don't wanna get bored ;)
Yeah, I've noticed that theme in your writing, and I've seen a few of your comments around on other posts. You seem to have been trying to find solutions for pain and sadness. That's been the same for me too. You get so tired of feeling down, and you realize there's no pill to fix it, there's no quick fix. You just have to figure it out. And I think I never did realize how rewarding the journey itself could be. I was so busy trying to find a way out of my sadness or whatever that I never realized what a learning experience I was right in the middle of. I don't think we're meant to be ecstatic level happy all the time. It's not beneficial to evolution that we would be. We need to a little struggle and a little strife to give us purpose and motivation and all that. And yeah, like you've said, it's good once we've lived through it enough to learn from it that we share. I hold so many thoughts simultaneously. I've struggled with depression all my life. I want to say fuck it all and give up and I want to cry with joy at the same time. I'm aware of it constantly. And I think I'm just someone who really does feel things. Maybe we all are, but I realize it. I just kinda roll with it and try to learn from the experience of all that my mind and body tells me. I think maybe once you realize how little you truly do understand, how little you know, that that sense of awe maybe never goes. And it's mixed with a little fear and dread too. There's no going back and there's no safety net and this is life. Every second of it. It's boggling to the mind and the senses. And my silly little mind is trying to give it words. It's funny really.