Being a Mom With Autistic Son

What is life if we don't really enjoy it, what is a journey if we're stuck in a monotone life. A good thing is we still have a chance to change our destiny, but fate is fate! Something we have to face, something that others won't understand unless they get the same fate.

I try to break through my own thought a lot of times and still I don't get it! Only back to God with a lot of "PRAYERS" and a lot of times I think "GOD" won't answer ....

The only thing I know, my SON is blessed and we love him dearly!

Supplements are helping me to keep going through out the day.

Nourishing our body only with foods I think isn't enough if we want to get extra energy, especially when our body is getting old, just like me. Besides getting old, I'm also a picky eater. So it's the best way for me to take some supplements to have the extra strength to take care of my son Adam, who never gets tired.

My whole day means exercise.

This the only exercise I have everyday, run and run to get close and keep up and my eyes always on him otherwise he will get lost in the crowd, especially in public or even around our neighborhood.

I do need a boxing bag to get rid of my anger.

Not only kids have tantrums, me too ... If I count how many times in a day Adam has melt downs, the answer is one or twice. The problem is I can't really deal with myself and with anger, knowing the fact that my 6 years old son is just like a two year old with no speech at all. Not even calling me, mom!

Well, I don't mind If I have to take two batches of supplements everyday.

I bet most of the moms know the trick to do this.

I can't imagine some moms need to work, take care of the kids and yet they need to do groceries and cook after work, clean up, laundry, and keep the house working from top to bottom, that's why they say ''MOM'' is the heart of the family.

I, myself who is a stay at home mom, who only takes care of my son and my husband, feel exhausted. I feel I have two kids when they home, both of them have a lot of foods allergy and both of them are sensitive to a lot of things.

Only my thought is to have a good night sleep.

For almost 6 years, I never had a good night sleep, not after Adam was born and especially not after Adam got diagnosed with autism. Adam loves being outdoor. Whenever he gets a chance to go outside, he will just run off. We double lock every door we have, cameras everywhere and it's not because we're scared some stranger will get in but because we're afraid Adam will sneak out late at night while we're asleep.

I trained myself well to hear and see while I'm asleep, waking up every minute to check on Adam. That is my night's sleep.

Have a great weekend from Seattle.

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