When it comes to being with me, you have to understand that I am very tough ....................................

When it comes to being with me, you have to understand that I am very tough to handle as I'm going to confuse you with my words and actions. And I'm here to apologize in advance.
I'm sorry if there's a time when I came off as if I want you away from me, but please understand that's my biggest fear. If I push away, it only means I want you closer, I'm sorry for the paradox, but I'm just never good at expressing my true emotions.
I'm sorry if there's a day when I ignored your message and refused to meet you. No I'm not mad and no I'm not getting away from you. It's just that I'm the type of person who needs a 'me-time'. Time where I need to be with myself and sort some things out. I really hope you could respect that.
On the other hand, I'm sorry if I kept asking for your attention, wanting to always hang out, demanding for your time. Just understand that I love you so much I want to spend and end my day with you. I hope you don't find me 'clingy' and 'obsessed'.
And the list goes on and on. But in the end of the day, I hope you're still willing to stay by my side and cope with me despite all these. Just please don't leave me.