Hi @caaat I know the pain of smiling and telling everyone I am ok when I am really not.
They have this notion that HR people are perennially salty (those working in compenben) and bubbly (those in Employee engagement) Since my prime duty is making people happy I often need to have a smile plastered on my faster even if I sometimes want to strangle people or plain drop kick them!
Some people deserve a highfive in the face with a chair!!
Anyway going back mini rant there. Its ok to feel down, its ok not to feel ok (sounds oxymoronic) , that you are hurting and in pain.
writing has done wonders to me. I had three major depression episodes and the last one during October 2017 was really bad. I seeked help. I wrote a lot. I ate a lot. Anything I can do to cope.
I was pretty glad Steemit happened. So dont worry about your readers being bummed out by your writing whats important is for you to release it.
Writing is a very cathartic and has proven to be very effective in my end.
You have to know @caaat that we are here. Your Ohana will be here without any judgement just support, will not say things you don't want hear unless you need us. We are always ready to listen.
I don’t even know what I have. I just got used to smiling and laughing in front of people and the only time I can be really honest about my feelings is when I’m writing (typing) it.
I feel like I’m two different person in one body sometimes. I love laughing with people I enjoy it s much but there are times I don’t even wanna see people. Literally. Idk. I said I can be really honest when I’m writing but thinking about it now, I don’t even remember how many times I pretended to be so happy and bubbly while feeling so down. Idk.
But you’re right, steemit is helping me in voicing out what I feel and it’s in a way a relief.
Thank you! Really. All of you who never gets tired of sending good vibes and encouragement to people who constantly need it. Thank you ohana!!!
I have those days I don't want to see people as well. My anti social tendencies when it's high i just lock myself and play video games.
Be honest in your writing let it all out