I think I needed to read this today. My story isn't that serious as yours (mass shooting in your neighborhood) but lately, I've been feeling the same way. After an experience with one of my friends, I really started to taught that finding loyal and meaningful relationships these days is really freaking hard. But then I realized that I do have them, that I have people who would die for me and who love me dearly. And those are people I need to focus on my time, my energy, my generosity. As you mentioned in your article, we need to focus on positive instead of the negative. Not everyone acts in the right way, but not everyone acts in the wrong way either. Your post touched me. Thank you :)