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RE: Fresh starts. Giving 10 steem away!
Im not happy about my forced fresh start, given the oportunity I would surely thought of a thousand more ways to search for a better way to do things. Marriage is tough and not without its ups and downs. Talking about this is actually pretty tough for me so Im probably not making any sense.
i can see where it is hard to talk about but i want to look back and know i fkr sure tried every avenue, every step, everything i could to save my marriage and my family. i dont want to look back on my marriage and think maybe there is more i could habe done on my end to make it work. That said, i am exhausted, this state of constant fighting, and quick hurtful comments, events ruined by sheer lack of respect for each other. I can see where maybe most people are just to tired to fight anymore to save a marriage. Certain issues can cone and go but the enduring fighting, being stuck in a rutt... that should not he the constant. I think you made perfect sense by the way.
I tried but I really am convinced that what happened was the worst way to end it. I really apreciate your reply but my hands are tied. After 14 years defending somebody that constantly hurt herself and those around her I feel frustrated that my patience has been punished in such a horrible way, there are 2 sides to every story but My pain is at times so hard to bear I feel totally sunk. I have to be strong but I feel weak and helpless. The saying time will heal all wounds seems hard to swallow right now.
I am sorry you feel sunken. I can relate to the feeling. Drained is an understatement. So fourteen years... that's a lot of time put forth. The fresh start was a separation? If that's to nosey then just tell me so and we can talk something else. Time doesn't heal wounds. Time simple puts distance between you and the event that wounded you. There is safety in distance. Learning to distance yourself from the pain is the fastest way to recover. Hope your day is going good.
Maybe we can talk on the chat soon, like I said my hands are tied and I dont want my children to suffer anymore from this so I hsve to be carefull what I write. My day is like most another horrible experience but Im yearning to recover and get on with my life, return to my happy open positive self.
i dont have the chat part. my email is kristyspeaks@gmail.com i email a few people from steem it using that email because they prefer privacy at times. i try to think of each day as a gift. its hard to do somedays but mostly if you see the day as a gift you tend to appreciate it more.