I just now read this post. I am so sorry for the loss of your friend. That's a really rough experience to go through. I do hope you have a good support group and plenty of friends and family to love you as you go through this grieving process. I will keep you in my prayers as well.
thank you so much for your kind words it is still hard to get through I have been dreaming about him quite a bit and it leaves me very emotional for the rest of the day.I have been trying to be strong. and the love of "the boy " keeps me going